dear fah,

dun worry, snowwy takkan lonely. with the maid that u hav, and her mouth that function like 7E, never close down. but yea.. im still gona bring julius to ur hse. hes kinda lonely now days. cus i kinda kill cleo. and hes getting really horny. he tried on twinkle, but she was just so garang. so im gona c if snowie is not that garang or maybe worst? the baby is fine babe, oh u noe that day, mak ngah bg nurul drink pepsi and than gave her ubat, the one thats on liquid base, and 2 mins after that she puke out! hahahha it was so funny. everyone lauf and my mom cant stop saying how stupid mak ngah is to mix all the pepsi and medicion. Kak Ida keep on asking me "bile nak web cam ni?" tu la babe.. cepat2 la u get the internet conction. u.c everybody misses u. and dont worry about your mom, she retiring and my mom is taking a holiday for 3 months to take care of nenek. Mak long wont get bored here. i promise u dat. im so glad natasha can cook for u. so babe, eat well, get enuf sleep, study hard, and party harder!!

wee doo, wee dooo....

We can never be alone. NEVER. We need family or friends or someone special in our life. Its imposible to just walk alone and wake up knowing that u have no one else but yourself. Well you are wrong. You will never be alone. Everytime when you are sad, there will be someone there to work their buts off just to make you smile. Even if there is no concern to them but they will always ask you how are u? how was ur day today? And yet we cannot see that. We never realise that. And we never appriciate that. And even worst, sometimes we take things for granted. Ive realise my mistakes. I talk to them or appriciate them if i need or want something for them. And sometimes i did not cater them as how ther cater me. Its funny how a human being can be so blind and yet they can see everythng else. The things that is infront of your nose, you will never see, but the one who is at the back of u, u will turn ur back. So im sorry for anyone that i had burden their lives with my problems and my needs. So people if you have a person that is always with you when your down, and trying to make your world up side down and a person who is always, always be there for you no matter how far you are when u need them the most, hold them close. Dont ever let go. Because they just might be the only person to give u the reason for you to wake up in the morning and smile again.

dear fah,

This is Kak Siti`s new born baby. Our youngest nephew. his face is not that red anymore. his name is Amirul. Yes.. his eyes are sepet.. i think hes ur replacement fah, one sepet is out, in with the new.

my Sunday, and amazing Monday..

Last two days, me and my family balik kampung to Tanjung Malim, Perak, my dads side of the family. Hyra, my cousin is joining too. Both of us planned to suprise her hubby with a cake, because its his bday on that day. but it kindda slipped trough my conversation with one of my auncle.DARN~! But before celebrating and all, we went to this river to mandi-manda. omg it was fun! all of us went there and jump out from this HUGE rock. it was deep, i dive in and i still cant touch the ground. We terjun in,* i cannot say we dive because we dove with a stupid style, some scream like tarzan and some do all these kind of stunts that a mother will never let her lil boys to watch* so.. yea, we terjun in, one by one. all of us did.. and i mean ALL of us. Syok wooo~! its an expirience that no other can face here in this busy bustling city. But desolately, its impossible to take my phone and snap pictures while playing around with the other clowns. and after that, when we realise that our stomach is playing orchestra inside, we headed back to the house and had our heavy dinner there. i slept there for a night with abg joe and kak ya, (Hyra). the next day, they sent me home,but before we went to Cineleisure and bought tickets to watch Ghost Rider. When we arrive back to my house, Joe had to go some whre to do a lil work, and we took this advantage for coloring my hair with a new color. My mom was amazed how we can do it by ourself and need not to go to hair saloon.

mama : What color u nak dye ni?

alia : BLONDE!

mama : Ha.. bagus la tu..

*after 15 seconds..

mama : apa? blonde? kamu dye blonde, aku bakar rambot tu nanti.

*saaaaape kate Aunty Rohana tak brutal skarannng??


but ofcorse it wasnt blonde. i oso not sure wat color it is, anyways.. i wana talk more bout Kak Ya...

So, this is Hyra Mohammad. Shes 26 but with the i.q of 3 1/2 yrs old. kidding la.. its 3 yrs old. by this pic, do i need to explain more? i rest my case.
Anywho,yes she is definately one of my favourite cousin. Yes i am buyers. why do i love this women, simply because of the tendency of making you lauf and her spontaneous yet unintentionally attitude that will make u laught till u cry. this chick is adventurous. she is so, untill she is brave enought to dye peoples hair to a color that is so.. strong. thank god it end up pretty good.. we do not argue or quarrel that much, basically, our ability and the way that we see things and understand thing is about the same. but sadly, abg joe thinks that i am more matured. * in ur face!*

This is she and her hubby, abg joe. the coolest dude walking on earth. both of them are a puuurfect couple. but u should see them arguing about asam boi, talking about, whos gona be the coolest parents, the hot tempered mommy or the "lantak kau lah" daddy. i cant wait for them to have the lil hyra`s and lil joe`s. we shud do outing activity more ofthen la, nest time we go holiday at some resort la pulak.

This is her and me. at the curve, 2 hours after she experimenting me with the new hair color. And 10 mins before watching late night movie with abg joe,abg iwan,abg ifi and amira. the movie ; ghost rider. daaamn macho man.. uh.. but when it comes to fight the bad guys, its kinda stupid. total rate.. maybe about 4/5. but people, go and watch, the effescts and the way Nicolas Cage ride the bike uh.. cair beb!

sakit..

im bored.. and im hungers. very hungers. but i cant do anythng much.. yes i can eat, but only soft diet for 2 weeks. it may sounds light, but its very much heavy. soft diet is a kind of food that u cant chew much. this is because, my back wisdom tooth is coming out.. yes people.. yeouch! i cant eat laaaa if i munch on junk food..ill die. seriously, it hurts like bloody hell, ive ask the dentist to take it out but she said she cant. its too early. sakit woooo.. i hav to suffer like dis for 2 weeks.. aish... and ive been eating pain killers like m n m`s. thank god now i can smell my food. atleast i can enjoy a lil bit. but what to enjoy when u can only eat soup and porridge and boiled stuff? go kfc; makan mashed potatoes, mc d; bubur ayam, pizza hut; mushroom soup, mamak stall ; roti bakar, omg people.. this is worst than fasting month. and when i sleep i have to sleep on the opposite side of my wisdom tooth. 2 weeks.. 2 weeks.. im dead la.. and tonight, my dad is taking us out for japaneese. bagus la sesangat...

dear fah..

O.M.G Fah, Kak Siti just delivered a gorgeous red face baby boy !! and hes not gona knoe who u are... hahahahahahahahhaha!

ehem.. ehem...

yea, yea, i know ive been crapping about being alone on valentines day and all. but hey, unexpected things do happend u noe?

with my name all over it

oh,shut up n just let me be happy..

i like daisies more anyway!

who cares if u have sum1 to celebrate valentine with. who cares if u can walk around happily with a dozen of red roses in ur arms. i like daisies!! who cares u can go dating2 n movies and expensive dinner. u can only go out with one person. i can go moooooore. i can do all those stuff with a whole bunch! i got;

nellie
tina
fah
yuns
farah
kimchi
kevin
putri
julius
urm..
alexandro
urm..
jamin
urm..urm...
jumanah!
ha..urm..
got some more.. got..
um.. demit!
um..
alaa! atleast thats more than one person
haaaaa! u beat that.
bloody hell u lucky coulples.
Happy Valentines people...

dear fah,

mmg la i buat my blog tersurat-tersirat.. if too obvious, nanti org bace they terasa pulak.. aish..
im missing u like crazy la.. i called u tade org answer, sad tau. the kerabats are fine, no worries, apple is now so actively talking. nenek is getting beta, the doc gav her this pills that will make her hormon more happy. so shes smilling for no reason now. thanks to the pills.. the doc said that since atok left us, she had not been really happy, and that kills her happy hormon. but now i guess its back. when can u actually on9 dear? they wana meet u on webby. i cant imagine how they would act. so keep on writing to me tru ur blog k? and call me back mate!!

its 2.06 am n i still cant sleep
n everyone is so nicely tight sleeping in their comfy bed and pillow and blanky, but i hav to be awake bcus i cant sleep. stupid pills.. i had my flu ,medication that make me k.o from 5.30 to 8.30 pm. and now i cant sleep. great.. my msn mate who usually keep me acompany till 3 - 4 am has this new rules frm the mom that she will un plug the net cable b4 12, i guess. hish.. bear.. bear.. now when hes not around and being emo in msn , i hav to go and friendstering, my friendster and ending up sending almost 9 testimonials at people and adding people that i dunno.
aisho.. my dad kate je nak teman pg dentist, and now im due almost 2 month. i need to go tomorrow. with or without daddy. class is at two today.. aish. malas gile.. kdu is getting sakier than ever.. oh yea.. fah.. make sure by next year, theres an empty room for me. cus im joining u in melbourne next year!
y out of suddent? well.. theres nothing left here for me anyways..
all of my frens chage, i bare knoe them at all, my prince charming who ive waited for so long is making me sick of waiting,im rejecting other dudes becus of him..tak boleh jadi ni..
might as well go to melbourne and start all over again.. with fah in the same roof..
cant wait.

to the ladies and fellas that left me for the bloody uitm and other places.. pls cum back during the hollidays in c.n.y and lets go to tropicana club and hav much..much.. fun again! we go swim-swim yea? i lost weight ni... cun sket pakai bikini.. hahahaha

putri,
felmi,
isa,
acap,
nishant,
emri,
the twins,
ntah sape-sape lagi.. lupe plak name korangs..
u noe wat that means.,, cus u guys lame tak balik.
bloody hell uitm.

miss u lads and ladies la. balik la wei.. balik laaa...

mine was horrid, tq.

this week is the worst week ever. i hav never had this kind of situation my whole freakin life.
what a freeking dicking week;
everythng did not go as wat i tot it wud be. all plans cancelled. yesterday i was so sick. me and jumanah went out the night before and finish the whole big bottle of sisha and the next morning out throut soar like mad. as tho we swallow a giant cactus. so yestreday i slept frm 12.30 morning to 6.30 evening and a woosyness feeling continue till 2 am. fook man. ive never felt so woozy and moody my whole entire life. i was screaming for no reason. and bathing for 5 times. becus of the bloody weather is so hot, i swear i dont wana go to hell. and my phone has not rang for days. wth? wat hppend to going out and watching movie? everybody is too darn busy for it? since when? gosh.. ive been getting so much mail from the friendster and its all about
my frns blog update. wtf? u think i freaking care about the update? not to mention i hav two giangantic pimple on my freaking face. just wat i need. its so huge, if theres oxigen and water, people can live on it. and my 3 weeks of flu is so fookingly stubborn. i think my flu is in love with me. i cant smell my food. mom bought me a new perfume frm dubai, and i cant smell it. even if u spray it insede my stuffy nose hole. nada, nothing. and im scaring julius like a mad cow becus ive been sneezing after 10 seconds. i drank too much hot tea and honey, till it burns my tounge. dosent matter how hard i try, my eyes will only open half wide. i look like a new born chinese baby every morning. i cant even watch my astro, there is always no signal, i dunno who to blame. becus there is no reason for it not to get any signal. there is no cloud. only sun. the sun is like shinnig right above till it make me sit in front of the refrigerator and drink cold milk. and so i decided to go on9 and msning, c if my frens can entertainme, this fuckong msn keep on asking me to troubleshoot, i swear if i hav a gun, ill troubleshoot the person who invented msn. and sometime, i miss my cousin so much, i cant do annythng, she in melbourne
having so much fun and the weather is cool, and yet im here stuck with the same thng over and over again. i cant wait for this week to be end, and hoping that the next week is horriblely great just like how horrid bad it is for this week. so... thats how basicly how my week has gone,
how was urs?

my conversation with tina that will make ur head shake from left to right..
alia ; tina
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
semue org putus cinta
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
kan?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
perasan tak?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yeke
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
haah
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
erkk
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yerp
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
sape lagi wei?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
dis yer valentine sakss
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yerp
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
btl
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
tp aku tak
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
aku sentiasa sayang kat dia
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
hes the only one
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
one and only
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sayangku
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
gud la if ur happy
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
im happy too...
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
i mean
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku happy gak skrg
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
takde pun sedih
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
dah ok dah
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
malas la aku nak cite dgn kau
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
lembab mcm babi
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
la
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku lak kene mrh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku kan tgh dgr citer kau nie
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko pk la wei
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sejak bile aku ade lelaki
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sejak bile aku ade sayang aku?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko tak terpk ke?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ye ye
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
skrg ni aku terpk
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
kau syg kat dia
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
tapi kau takleh nak g date dgn dia on valentines day
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
cuz dia blum jd bf kau
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sebab tu la
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
skarang ko nak terpk?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
jd tadi ko patot tanye
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sape aku punya "sayang"
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ok
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sekarang ko tnye aku
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ohh ok
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
sape syg kau?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ehh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
jap aku blur
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko tgk
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku dh paham
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
aku marah ko terase
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
hahahhahahhahahha
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
k k dah paham
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ala kau pun ayat bahase mesia kau
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku pening skit
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
sebab kau repeat benda tu
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
org lain ok je
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
so aku cm blur2
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko je xtra lembab
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
tula pasal
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
tapi takde ar lembab sgt
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku cume blur jer
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
lembab la tu
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ok skarang ko tanye
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sape aku punya sayang
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku tanya kau sape syg kau?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
yea laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
tak paham lagi ke?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ohh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ha sape syg kau?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
julius (my male cat)
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
mana kau tau?
*commiting suicide..

yes, i am talking about you

why does everybody change? why does changes happends to a person? why cant the same sweet innocent trust worthy person who u used to be just remains the same? why cant i just be blind enought untill i cant see how you change? how you change your attitude,your words,your language,your type of music, your fav food,everythng. we used to be like bonnie and clyde, bobbi and whitney, paris and nicole. we use to click so good. we use to trust eachother. nothing, not a thing can break us down. to tear us apart. even the lacturer, yes.. we will change places because we were too noisy, but in a minute, we well crawl on the floor like a weak soldier in a bush and sit together again, and do our same routine everyday. but now, as i noe u more, you are not the same person who u use to be. you are not the same person who i friend with. i am no more your priority, i will always be the last person you would think of. the only time we will be together, is when u hav nothing else to do or to bother, or when u need my help,when you need a shoulder to cry on, when u need our boring period to be fufill. than my phone starts to sing. but when ur laughing,having so much fun,beeing hi of laughter,full of good foods in a great place with a great person,feeling cold when ur in a cinema,making so much noice because you just cant stop laughing,and begging the person to stop making your tummy stretching so big because u laught so much, i will be in my blanky, wondering.. why dint u called? what are u doing? where are u going to? with who? why not me? why not me annymore? dint we use to have so much fun together? dint we use to spend so much time talking on the phone? dint we always get scholded frm our parents because we c too much of eachother? wat hapend to those days? what had happend? did u even realise that u chaged? that your leaving me behind slowly? that ur leaving me alone when i needed u the most? why do i have to be so unblind? why cant i just cant see it ? why do i have to realise the situation? why do i have to be so alert? why do i even need to noe u for the first place? why do i hav to be with you long enuf untill i can realise that ur stripes are becoming spots now? just why, why do u have to change?

cleopetra

im so sorry sayang

the first time i saw u,
u were at the pet shop,
tigger was gone,so thats why i wanted a new cat,
u caught my eye, we were having such an amazing chemistry,
ur fluffy coat, grey and cream,
i fell in love with you right away,
i begged my dad to buy u, everyday i went to the pet shop and making sure that ur havent belong to someone else yet,
untill the next week, my dad says ok to have u,
i was so happy, i dun care how much u cost, i just want you,
and i can feel that we were really bond to eachother,
after u were mine, i couldnt sleep,
ill make sure u sleep first, that ill slowly sleep beside you,
i wont even move becus im scared if i woke u up,
day by day, u grown so beautifully,
so gorgeous, i cannot wait for you to give me ur kittens,
i want you to be a mommy so much,
i wanted more little cleopetra,
oh my god.. u grew so fast.. u were sooo adorable,
i cant see me feeling sad, u will slowly come and cheer me up with your naughty attitude,
i remember the first time i bath you, u cant stop crying, and i had to use the hair dryer to dry u up,
so that u wont feel cold, i gave u so much attention, i love u soo much sayang, i balik rumah so early just to meet you, everytime im on vacation, and when im back, ill search for u,
and we cuddled eachother to sleep,
yesterday i went in my brothers room, u dint want to come in, u stayed out side the door, i wonder why, you wasnt that close to me,
today, i was suppose to pick up my sister, and visit grandma at the hospital,
i was rushing, and careless,
i dint see whats down under my car, i dint realise, so i started the car, and start moving the car,
n i felt such a big bump, i tot that i bump onto a bottle, like u always use to,
and out of suddent, i remembered u, i look at the back, and it was u,
u were jumping so high, u were such in pain, blood coming out ur mouth, i stop the car in the middle of the road, and ran to u, i pick u up, n screamed as load as i can, i ask u to hold on, so that i will bring you to the vet, but slowly..i feel ur heart pupming so fast.. so fast.. n u were moving as if u wre in electric chair. i still scream, and pet your soft body, i cudnt feel ur bone anymore, i scream and scream, i dont care about the neighbour, and suddently, u stop breathing, i cant feel ur heart pumping.. no more pulse..
i cant face it, i cant believe it, i was the one who chose u, who wanted u so badly, and im the one who killed u, how could i do such thng, i will never forgive my self,
dun worry sayang, ur in heaven, ive dig ur grave so deep, so deep so that u cant hear anythng, u will feel peace once again, and i dig ur grave so wide,so wide u wont feel any thng around you, and everyday i will pray to god, so that we will meet again one day,
in heaven.. im so sorry sayang.. i tak sengaja.. i love u cleo..
i love u so much.. i love u cleopetra..
i noe its all my fault.. please forgive me sayang, and if i have the chance to c u again one day,
i will never let u go..
im so sorry sayang..

tot i was alone..

[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
i mean
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u know
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
wen we want sumething
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yg kite btl2 nak
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yg kite btl2 syg
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
kite susah nak dpt
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
its not fair tau
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
cuz sume of them get wut they wunt
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n sum of em plak tak dpt ape yg dorang nak
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
its really unfair
erynalia ... says:
i noe
erynalia ... says:
tapi
erynalia ... says:
ape nak buat
erynalia ... says:
u dun just get wat u want
erynalia ... says:
all the time
erynalia ... says:
just thnk like dis la
erynalia ... says:
everythng hppnds for a reason
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yeah i knoe
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
but..
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u know
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
for eg like u
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u have feeling towerds him
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n im pretty sure ts hard for u to kill d filings
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u know its not fair tau
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
mcm
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
he deserve to hv u
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u deserve to dpt dia
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
but yet
erynalia ... says:
ntah la wei
erynalia ... says:
all i can do is sabar