im so sorry sayang

the first time i saw u,
u were at the pet shop,
tigger was gone,so thats why i wanted a new cat,
u caught my eye, we were having such an amazing chemistry,
ur fluffy coat, grey and cream,
i fell in love with you right away,
i begged my dad to buy u, everyday i went to the pet shop and making sure that ur havent belong to someone else yet,
untill the next week, my dad says ok to have u,
i was so happy, i dun care how much u cost, i just want you,
and i can feel that we were really bond to eachother,
after u were mine, i couldnt sleep,
ill make sure u sleep first, that ill slowly sleep beside you,
i wont even move becus im scared if i woke u up,
day by day, u grown so beautifully,
so gorgeous, i cannot wait for you to give me ur kittens,
i want you to be a mommy so much,
i wanted more little cleopetra,
oh my god.. u grew so fast.. u were sooo adorable,
i cant see me feeling sad, u will slowly come and cheer me up with your naughty attitude,
i remember the first time i bath you, u cant stop crying, and i had to use the hair dryer to dry u up,
so that u wont feel cold, i gave u so much attention, i love u soo much sayang, i balik rumah so early just to meet you, everytime im on vacation, and when im back, ill search for u,
and we cuddled eachother to sleep,
yesterday i went in my brothers room, u dint want to come in, u stayed out side the door, i wonder why, you wasnt that close to me,
today, i was suppose to pick up my sister, and visit grandma at the hospital,
i was rushing, and careless,
i dint see whats down under my car, i dint realise, so i started the car, and start moving the car,
n i felt such a big bump, i tot that i bump onto a bottle, like u always use to,
and out of suddent, i remembered u, i look at the back, and it was u,
u were jumping so high, u were such in pain, blood coming out ur mouth, i stop the car in the middle of the road, and ran to u, i pick u up, n screamed as load as i can, i ask u to hold on, so that i will bring you to the vet, but slowly..i feel ur heart pupming so fast.. so fast.. n u were moving as if u wre in electric chair. i still scream, and pet your soft body, i cudnt feel ur bone anymore, i scream and scream, i dont care about the neighbour, and suddently, u stop breathing, i cant feel ur heart pumping.. no more pulse..
i cant face it, i cant believe it, i was the one who chose u, who wanted u so badly, and im the one who killed u, how could i do such thng, i will never forgive my self,
dun worry sayang, ur in heaven, ive dig ur grave so deep, so deep so that u cant hear anythng, u will feel peace once again, and i dig ur grave so wide,so wide u wont feel any thng around you, and everyday i will pray to god, so that we will meet again one day,
in heaven.. im so sorry sayang.. i tak sengaja.. i love u cleo..
i love u so much.. i love u cleopetra..
i noe its all my fault.. please forgive me sayang, and if i have the chance to c u again one day,
i will never let u go..
im so sorry sayang..