alia, oh.. alia!

in case u guys are wondering,,, NO i am not dead yet

2008-07-22T12:02:00.004+08:00

lamaaaaaaa gile i tak update,
soory,
its not because im just being lazy,
or forgot that i have a blog,
few months back was kinda rough for me
so i dont plan to share it with u guys.
anywaaaaaay,
im good now,
great actually,
after the chemo,
the blood was not behaving well still,
so thats why ive been staying home most of the time.
we did everything that we could, but i guess it wasn't enough
and so it came back again,
but lets not talk about that,
lets talk about what happened for the past.. i duno 3 months?
for starters, im 20 now
i had 2 surprise dinner, so sweet of u guys
i got 2 new nephew and niece
still single
fah is going back to o.z this thursday..
boring nye,.
most of my fren from uk is now home..
jom chill dooh!
im looking forward for meeting up with my girls..
gile lama tak jumpa.
planning to join kdu again this august, and also gym..
oooohhhh i just joined guitar class
cool kannn??
tapi baru belaja 3 notes..
heheh
have been lepak with adzim alot lately
we have discover new place to eat everyday
in bangsar and bukit damansara
there is actually a lots of great places to eat
hidden
only special people je tau..
hehehe
me, dania, shaza,hanah and nawar is planning on a girls trip
how exiting is that?
i can sense loads of camwhoring
;)
thats all for today..

we are back to square one

2008-04-02T19:32:00.002+08:00

funny story,

the last post i posted on my blog was the day that

i had to go for medical check up, and the doc is taking

too much time of mine therefore i went to the nearest c.c.

with ifi and go on9 and blog,

and after the doc called me, to let me knoe the blood test result,

my leaukemia is back..

but this time, im not going to the full treatment in the hospital,

the doc advise to have 3 or more chemo theraphy and

bone marroe transplant,

just like last time.

with additional bone marrow transplant,

but ive decided, those are all bullshit.

ive been trough it once and thats it,

not anymore,

another year or sorrow and fake hair, fake smile,

try make myself believe that im stronger and everything is going to be better

after the treatment?

hell no,

the doctor wana tell me im gona die 2moro?

BULLSHIT

hes a doc, why the hell he wana play god?

im using the alternative.

i wont let this cancer kill me the first time,

so why should i let it kill me this time,

so.. readers.. you are about to expirience this bumpy roller coaster ride

with me on the front seat,

lets see if alia can defeat her bloody shit cancer,

who`s with me?

greetings

2008-03-14T12:06:00.002+08:00

sorry i have not update my blog for sooo.. bloody hell...un-imaginely.. long time

its because ive just move in to a new housing area

where wireless is a ???

not really a valid reason, but what evss..

anyways, whats new in my life?

ive finish my 1st sem at kdu after deferring for a year,

rambut pon dah panjang,

alia dah tak botak mcm rock star lagi

ive move

still no strings attached,

twinkle is still alive,

my parents just miss the flight last 3 days to maldives

but they bought a new ticket anyway,

mmm...

tu je la kot,

im having my semester break people!

just ring ring ring me pls.

lets go out and catch up about eachother.

yusnie,

farah,

fah,

kristine,

miss u guys a looooooots.

cepat baliks.

jaja,

kau ni dok k.l tapi berzaman tak jumpa.

dear juju

2007-11-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

hengkau ni minahhh,

tak rindu haku ke?

hek eleeeehhh kaaau,

bikin aku panaaaaaaas je,

haku nak lepak la,

haku rindu dekat hengkau.

hengkau dah diam kan sekarang?

sebok sgt kerje kat setarbaks hengkau tu.

lain kali kalau haku datang, kau bagi aku air kopi pusing2 free ok?

keycoh aaaah

terer siot aku ckp base rempits.

stop giving me nick namesm people

2007-11-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

since i have a super funky short hair,

they keep on giving me names,

g.i jane la, halle berry la, natalie portman la, angelina jolie la, jessica alba la..

hahaha ok2 the last two names i made it my self.

but seriously.. stop caling me other than alia. or eryna. or hotness, goddess.. gorgeous..

haha ok2.

my brother and bear lagi terok.

bapak heartless ok?

they call me botak.

wat ever.. but the golden globe goes to my dad la..

so one day i went to telawi for eyebrow trading and some

small shopping. when i come home and was having dinner with my parents

mak: apesal kamu buat kening lagi. org kate tak elok, tak elok laa..

alia: ala.. mak jeles.

ayah: shes right u knoe. its weird.

alia: watever la... its the "thing now"

ayah: thing ape nya, dah la botak, tinggi nak mampos, pastu kening nipis,

macam jin betina.

yes, u have my permission to laugh.

aw.. romantik nyea... not!

2007-11-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

2007-11-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

jasmin : spider girl

kum-kum : play boy pose.

the truth or dare game in melbourne.

lalalalallalalaaa

2007-10-31T12:32:00.000+08:00

ok,

i am guilty of not updatng my blog..

fine.. i take the blame.

anyway, how was raya?

mine was great.

we usually q up for collecting duit raya.

its accordingly by whos the oldest,

get to q up infront.

so fah is older than me 2 months. watever!

she get to get the duit raya 5 seconds earlier than me,

and i will always purposely/unpurposely.. watever?

pijak her kain.

but this year.. i cant. cuss shes in melobourne,

wat ever babe.. terasa ok u tak da?

the thing that i love the most about raya is..

nonono not the food.

the duit raya!

money never smell so good in the raya morning.

fah tak dapat!!! padan mukaaa!!!

anyway. maaf zahir batin everyone.

eve tho i dont hurt people,

cus im such an angel..

i noe right?

wat else.. wat else...

oh yea.. ja! ko buat prom tak ajak aku ok?

siot la kau

mcm ni la skang

kate negaraku fren?

wat kind of negaraku friend tak ajak pg prom?

dah la wei.. dah la..

oh yea.. pavillion rocks maaaaaaaaaaan!

when my dad ada la.. when my dad tak da.. mmg useless la tempat tu.

im going to mexico in 4 more months.

rindu siot lenny aku.

aye... lenny... mm...

moving

2007-10-31T12:21:00.000+08:00

im moving peeps.

in a week.

basically all my stuff is there already.

so im moving very2 soon.

since most of my ladies are not here in our tanah air,

so i cant make any house warming.

maybe raya open house.

a simple one.

at our new house.

ill sent text messages to the u guys.

pls come.

like seriously come.

panda, hang jgn nak mengada, and jaja oso.

just because i did datang at ur open house,

dosent mean that u have all the rights not to go to mine.

so sorry ja.. i was sick. i dint even go to aunty rosni`s that night.

and panda, i had to do work.

packing and unpacking.

so sorry.

fah is coming homee!!!

hell yeeeeeeeaaah!

we had bloody good times in melbourne dint we?

dada

2007-10-31T12:03:00.000+08:00

ok.. it seems that ive been mamking fun of my mom more than my dad.. so mcm tak fair la kan? heres some stuff that ive kumpul about my dad. he HATES our songs. like seriously hate it.but everytime were in the car, he will turn to our radio channel. y u wonder? thats because he brings his works in the car aswel.. so he wonders around while driving but me and my sis will be head bangging at the back.

p. diddy and xtina = tell me

so the songs go like..

do that sh*t , do that sh*t , do it..

and my dad ask us " do that what? turt? whats hes trying to say?"

pussycat dolls : buttons

so the songs go like..

loosen up my button babe.. uh huh!

and my dad ask us " stupid song. what for to loose her buttons. apesal lagu butang pulak ni?"

will-i-am : i got it from my momma

my dad ask us " y s it ur momma? fathers dont get credits ke?"

ratu : teman tapi mesra

oh.. this song he really like.. "aku ADA KAWAN... ah ah ahhhh!!!!!!!"
yes he did that.

theres more actually.. but for now on.. thats the only songs that u can remember.

im homeeeeeeee

2007-10-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

i noe right?
the same title again and again
but yea.. i am home.
melbourne was awesome mannnn.
i had bloody good times with them,.
make some interesting new friends and all
learn new culture in Melbourne,
i noe that u need to be independent once ur living in
different country, but i never thought
that i would have to be that Dependant.
i mean like seriously,
i never thought of going to the market,
all i know is that if im hungry,
just go to the fridge and it never disappoint me,
i dont know when or how,
but
food is just there.
but in melbourne if ur living without your parents,
u have to go to the market or supermarket to fill in ur fridge.
and thats not it,
clothes wont be clean by it selves,
dishes dont wash it self,
bed dosent get clean by it self,
and toilets,
light blab,
fan dust,'
cutting onions,
sunny side up eggs,
in fahs world,
its all manual, not automatic
like mine at home.
u have to do it urself.
freaaky?
i noe right..
but hey, u cant rely on ur parents and maid all the time.
but since i am and i can now.
i think i should.
hahahhha.
i heard fah tell her friends that im gona drive them nuts,
and do some wild and crazy stuff,
and turning melbourne up side down.
and guess wat?
they so agree.. hahahha
theres this once we played truth or dare,
where boys wearing girls dresses,
girls telling their bra sizes,
its all fun..
but as we all agree,
what happend in melbourne,
stays in melbourne.

i am broke

2007-10-01T08:51:00.000+08:00

my dad gave me 1k aussie for 2 weeks,

n now tinggal $4oo bucks.

i am broke.

my dad is so gona kill me.

i just bought this GORGEOUS juicy coture

bracelet that cost me 130 o.z

cantik ok???

i so tak menyesal,

i sanggup tak makan 3 days for it.

but my moms gona kill me.

wateverr!!

ok now i gtg,

have to purchase going back home ticket for tis sunday,

yes im coming back home on sunday!!

in melbourne

2007-09-26T10:41:00.000+08:00

sejuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!

bapak sejuk ok. but fah said.. no la... u will get use to it.

banyak la kau.

and i suke2 bawak tube top la

all the malaysian clothes

not melbourne

so its bapak sejuk.

but its awesomely fun!

we had ice cream at night.

and hot chocolate.

i never tought as a small thing like that could really be entertaining.

my mak long said i susah hati here.

yea la this people here buy their own groceries!

like me.. i noe my fridge is always full.

i dont even bother to noe from where it come from.

and soon ill be buying groceries?

woaah!

talking about a wake up call,

omg! E! kat sini tunjuk boobies!

gross ok?

till than

-tqverymouch!-

cousins outing

2007-09-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

this happend 2 weeks ago before fasting month at tropicana club, where me and my cousins and also siblings went to have a good time by bowling. but of corse i did not play. i really stink at it, there are some style or ways for u to play bowling, obviously i cant show u how, cus i dunno how to, so i leave u with the pro`s. watch and learn kids.

the "chase the ball" style
( a`a)

the micheal jacson style
( abg ifi )

the flying style
the feet dosent touch the ground, i
have no idea how he does that
(ijat)

the garu kepala style
(abg erel)

the ballerina style
(amira)

the " bang-bang my baby shot me down" style
( adi )

the BEROK style
( abang iwan)

2 more days and still counting,,

2007-09-21T22:38:00.001+08:00

2 more days and ill be in melbourne.

arifah:
im so... sexcited!
farah:
wat? than who`s gona send me to the airport?
yuns:
best aa kau, hel ells!
jasmin:
i cant wait to cucuk ur butt!
bear :
berjalan je u ni
nellie :
wat? holiday lagi? damn u!
kak ya :
buy me anything la. but hand bag pon best jugak!
daddy :
how much money do u need? ey, ur coming home in a week ok?
jangan nak gatal2 duduk situ lama2.
mak :
u better behave, cuci pinggan, make ur bed, dont go out so late, eat ur medications!
alia :
please tell me i find another fling there! *cross fingers!*

2007-09-15T12:45:00.000+08:00

hi
alia: ola!
wats ur name miss?
alia: eryna alia bt bakry
how old are u?
alia: very old. 19++
why do u like cats?
alia: comel gila gebabi, and ive never live my life without it.
which one is ur favourite cat?
alia: cleopetra, tigger,bobo,julius, but they all dah tade.
do u talk to your car?
alia: yea, when she talks to me i talk back.
why do u think your mom is special?
alia: she mistaken my name with my brothers name.
why do u think your dad is special?
alia: he give me MONEY!
when did u know about sex and from who?
alia:when i was 12, from my cousin. i kenot see my parents faces after i knew.yucks.
what are u wearing?
alia: pernah hear, baju kelawa?
wat is ur funniest moment that happened recently and u cant get over it?
alia: ahahaha, u noe, hahaha, julius..hahha he was so takot to jumpa the vet,
and he end up peeing on the vet. ahahahaa.
In 3 words, describe ur self now
alia: clueless, miss cesar, nak ice cream.
where do u like to go during free time?
alia:CURVEEEEEE!
why?
alia: its a whole complete fun day for me if i go there.
why?
alia: i can karaoke, i can setarbaks, i can shop cheap clothes, and baskin robbins.
how many places that u have been?
alia: alot
name them
alia: malas.
why are u lazy?
alia:because i need to think for that.
just do it demit!
alia: arab saudi, jordan, england, paris, switzerland, italy, australia, new zealand,
indonesia, thailand, tokyo, mexico, U.S. HAPPY?
very.. do u like travelling.
alia: i hate planes.
ok, but i asked, do u like travelling?
alia: i tak suka naik planes laaaa! if car suka la.
nevermind.
alia: tqverymouch!

hello melbourne!

2007-09-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

so after mexico

im going to melbourne to say hi to fah,

and gona have bloody good times.

yes, u can hate me all u want.

while most of u have to go to clases and colleges,

i can go to melbourne.

hahaha

chemo is so worth it.

ok. now together we pray that i

will get a new fling in melbourne.

and i sihat oso.

amin...

i hate when a guys said that he will call u

at night before he goes to sleep,

but he dint.

and its happening not to me,

but to yusnie, which is even worst.

and now im here stuck with her nagging about why isnt hes calling,

and i have to give all the excuses in the world.

sorry i dint update that much.

after came back from mexico, my scedule was abit up tight.

i slept over peoples house as tho i dont have my own.

and because yuns and farah is leaving

so ive been doing lots of partying.

so i am a very busy person.

and later im going to melbourne pulak..

aye..dios mio..

-tqverymouch!-

im homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2007-09-03T18:44:00.000+08:00

im home people,
yes i buy souvenirs.
ok
duno else wat to say.
ill update later.
tqverymouch!

mak aku buat lawak lagi

2007-08-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

so sorry mom,
but for the sake of people who is bored to death,
and have nothing else to do,

when we say..... she said,
cesar............... carlos

ur never great full................. u never THANKS

oh.. ur gona like this,

Calvin Klein.................... Calvin clean, Calvin Klen, Klenvin Klain

Dolce & Gabana ...................Dolse , Dols, Doys

Bagus Curtain...................... Good Curtains

BCBG Mazaria................. BCBG Masariang

ayah : who wants to go for late night pizza?!
alia & amira : jooooooom!!
ayah : malas la pulak nak dress up, makan maggi je la.

aku tak suke la kan die ajak-ajak taik ayam warne hijau.

one day at LA pizza place where my dad nearly punch this white waiter but i think the white waiter is very cute.

ayah: can i have a vegetarian pizza please?

cute white waiter : ok, one vegetarian pizza.
ayah: no no for all of us,
cute white waiter : ok so four vegetarian pizza
alia : can i have seafood pizza instead?
cute white waiter : ok so.. one seafood pizza and 3 vegetarian.
ayah: yes thats about it, make sure there is no meat pls, were all vegetarian.
cute white waiter : but shes having seafood, theres meat in it.
ayah: no no no i dont want any meat at all,
cute white waiter: no meat? are u sur..
ayah: yes! we are all vegetarian, we dont eat any meats. no meat at all.
cute white waiter : ok so.. 3 vegetarian pizza and one seafood pizza with no meat.
ayah: yes.. and make sure no meat, write that down!
cute white waiter: yes sir, no meat.

and yes.. my pizza only got cheese and tomato paste.

i miss my bon bon..

2007-08-28T11:59:00.000+08:00

im in L.A!!!!!!!
well actually im going back home 2morow.
ive been in LA for 4days now.
LA is fun fun fun!
i shop like freaking deaking lots!
and disneyland...
whoa.. theyre good at making u fell like a kid again.
well.. we dint actually ride all the rides, because that would be impossible.
but our daddy knows us best.
we went again the next day.
but still tak sempat.
anyways.... ive bought u guys souvenirs!
oh yeaaaa!
i think LA is the best place for the family tour this time.
but mexico is da bombdbdbdbdbd!
yea..yea.. it is because of lenny,
and the best part of it,
in 6 more months im going back to mexico,
mom cant take anymore leaves, cus she mises her students.
and daddy is VERY BUSY,
so.. im going with 2 of my frens.
and im planning to go to disneyland again.
oh yeaaaaa!
and Celine Dions concert almost put me to sleep,
thats because she high notes wakes me up,
a new.. DAAAAAYYY!!!!
wtf right?
we end up make fun of her,
ide rather go to sheila majids concert,
and screams,
SINARAN!!!
hehe, u noe wat i mean..
sent my regards to mommy k?
and a FREE FRONT ROW TICKETS to mommy's concert,
tak banyak.. tu je..
oh oh oh!
vip back stage pases.
so yea..
dats about it i guess,
my vaca ends tonight.
and tomorow, im going to japan,
and the next day, ill be home home home!
tqverymouch!

greetings from Vegas.

2007-08-23T10:26:00.000+08:00

now i am in Vegas.
oooh yeaaa.
tonight, our plan is to go around vegas,
and snapping some pictures.
im really looking froward to see the carrot top show.
but sadly the tickets are sold out.
stupid mat salleh.
but were gona watch Celine Dion at Caesars Palace.
i hope she wont put me to sleep.
but before im in vegas, i was from san francisco.
another breath taking expirience when you
walk around at night.
its gorgeous.
those are some pictures taken from the citys
and at the fisherman's village.
im sorry i could not upload all the pictures. its
just too much work for me.
anyway, enjoice!
x)

2007-08-23T10:07:00.001+08:00

Sandiego sunrise

2007-08-18T11:43:00.001+08:00

i have now done all of my treatment in mexico. so that means that i have completed all of my treatment. so for now, the cancer is gone, and hopefully it wont relapse again.
i am now in Sandiego, planning to visit Sea World and the famous sandiego zoo. and yes im already miss him. well, life have to move on right farah? i dont feel like travelling and holidaying in LA and LV anymore. i feel like taking the next ticket to kl and flyy.
i wana go home. i miss my kfc. and u guys too, and the karaoke booth in curve.
im so sorry im really bad with buying souvenirs. im getting u guys either perfume or a top.and pictures of me. hahahah.
have u ever have this mix emotions and u dont really know what it is?
i am having it now.
damn it.

one day with lenny

2007-08-13T13:37:00.000+08:00

one day, me and lenny went out for a movie, and than we saw this two huge ladies ordering their foods. and because of that, we had to wait 20 minutes for their foods to be done. those foods are
1. 2 large pop corns
2. 2 slurpee
3. 4 nachos
4. 4 small sodas.

so me and lenny start to make fun of this two huge ladies.

lenny : they're gona buy the whole candy store
hahahahaha
lenny : we can get lost in their asses
hahahahhaha
lenny : i bet at the end of the month, they gona eat each other, be cause they're
hungry and broke from todays movie snack
hahahahhahaha
lenny : i think they are the reason for 7 eleven to open 24 hours.
hahahahhaha
alia : if ur not gona stop teasing fat womens, ur wife will end up being that fat.
lenny : well.. its not so hard to find that kind of wife in mexico
hahahahaha
alia : look, they have ate half of their pop corns now while waiting
for they're nachos, and they're not in
the cinema yet.
hahahahhaha
lenny : if ur not gona stop teasing fat women... ur wife..
hahahahhahahahahhahahahahah
hahahhahahahaha

how can u not love him?

to fah, ja, farah, yusnie, jumanah, and nelly.

2007-08-13T10:39:00.000+08:00

these are some picture of me and lenny,
on our way to a gorgeous place call,
Rosarita.

i look fu*cked up fat in this picture
theres more picture while were in rosarito,
but its with him so i will upload it
as soon as i got it from him.

puas hati ladies?
pass tak korang?
hahahaha
tqverymouch!

dear fah..

2007-08-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

u mes me?
oh.. i think my mom was using the computer,
and she dint realize that u were online.
sorry babes, if that happen again,
text me, and ill be on9 with the webby,
me and the mexican guy? umm.
i dunno.. hes weird lately,
i dont understand him sometimes.
maybe because im leaving the hospital next week.
we really need to chat, i really need to talk to u
privately.
so if ur free.. text me.
muahxness.

dear fah..

2007-08-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

hey babe.
i noe..i noee..
ur so in lovee..
yada yada yada,
me n mom doing fine here,
well.. im doing great actually,
ive went out with lenny yesterday to the museum,
and we had awesome time,
just walking and talking for hours,
having coffee at the small cafe,
learning more about mexico and the people
and the art.
mexico is not just a third world country,
its an awesome place.
its a place that u should visit before u die,
like a must!
we need to go on9 babes..
so many things i wana tell u personally,
till than,
ti amour!

update, update

2007-08-04T08:40:00.000+08:00

movie was fuuuuuuun,
i had jap before movie, so it was fuuuuun,
he taught me how to mix pop corn and
chocolate nuts and it taste sooooo goooood,
and i had beef baritos yesterday but just a bite,
and it was fantastic.
i like mexican food.
and than the next day, i feel like
in high school again. everyone was talking about us.
and its so tiring to tell that it was not a date.
but they still keep on those ooooohh, aaaaaa
so.. wat ever.
2morow were going to this photography museum.
and were planing to go to the sea world,
i was suppose to go today, but something else happened,
so we postponed it.
and hes gona bring me to starbucks!
we have to drive 30 minutes just to have starbucks.
its the only one in tijuana.
so hes nice enuf to bring me there just to have my fav latte.
so ive learn more spanish words today,
de a mas,
u call me.
te a mo,
ill call u.
oi,
today,
manyada,
tomorrow.
aorta,
now.
estabien,
ok.
so yea.. im speaking spanish like 2 years old,
but they think its adorable.
hahahha

somethng that i forgot.

2007-08-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

bear tagged me loooooong time ago. and i forgot about this until i read farahs blog.

a . 5 songs in my mp3
1 fugees - cant take my eyes off u
2 awie - sejati ( im serious.. i like that song .. tinggal kenagan.. gagal segala impian... erti sejati!!!!. cmon people sing with me!)
3 kylie minogue - red blooded women
4 texas - say what u want
5 mariah carey - hero (who dosent?)

b . 5 places i will not miss when im in curve
1. nichi
2. baskin robbins
3. setarbaks
4. the karaoke booth
5. cineleisure

c. my 5 bad habits that irritate fah like crazy
1. burping
2. sapping her hot ass when shes walking up stairs
3. chasing snowie
4. changing her jiwang songs in her car
5. saying how im in love with azad and making plans with her about me being with azad.

d. 5 things that i wont put in my mouth
1. oink oink
2. nose shit
3. finger nails
4. fish brains
5. cherry tomatoes- yuck!

e. 5 things that i miss so mouccch while in here in mexico
1. nasi lemak
2. my ladies
3. my car
4. my bantal busuk that i cannot bring because according to my mom "nanti tak pass airport laa" 5. tv3 news

f. 5 bad habits that i got from my dad
1. swearing people in the car while driving
2. accusing the road is sial when there is traffic jam, when we want to go back kampung in sg buloh and its our fault cus we went out late.
3. debating with anything dengan my mom.
4. listening loud music in the car.
5. turning up the bass very loud when listening music in mp3 or car. it can make some people puke.

g. 5 amazing things that my cat can do and yours cant.
1. eating kit kat
2. farting out loud
3. watching discovery channels- they loove it
4. playing hide n seek, police entry, sep-sep-sep , tom-tom-tom with me
5. peeing at the veterinarian. hahaha julius did that. i swear!

h. 5 spanish words that ive learn here
1. bueno dias - good morning
trades - good evening
nochas - good night
2. komo esta uste - how are u?
3. muevien - very good
4. tiamo - i love u
5. and its perfaVor not perfaMor - its, please.

i.5 reasons why i wont tagged anyone else
1. it takes time to do this crap. im doing it in one hour
2. its forcing ur brain to think
3. i hate to think
4. and u will tend to reply my tag in 4 motnhs
5. im sleepy.

oooola ola ola olaaa

2007-08-02T05:51:00.000+08:00

ok..ok. i take it back,
this place maybe saks,
but the people here rox.
so i like it here, slowly im adopting my self with the people here
and the food here and the culture here.
while my dad snooze loudly with my mom,
i went out and have a chat with my p.r
lets give him a name.
Lenny
yes.. so most of the time i will be with lenny
talking and making jokes and have so much fun
if hes not around, i think ill go loco
thats crazy in Spanish.
i dint laugh a lot here, and top of that the food was ridiculous,
so basically i wasn't having a great time here.
but thankfully theres lenny.
he ask me out 2morow for a movie.
and i said yes.
not because i think its a date, more like just trying to have fun.
because im so bored here.
and this saturday, were going somewhere where he lives in mexico
to have Japaneses.
thank god he like japaneses. and i can see more of mexico.
oh yes.. word for today is
atun
it means tuna fish.
hahahahahaha

Ola motafaka!

2007-08-01T12:27:00.001+08:00

ahahhahahahha
that sounds gud.
i learn 2 new words
devada= ur welcome. its because i keep on saying
grasias
and they keep on saying devada.
so i think its ur welcome.
and another word is tiamo!
it means i love u, my cousin thought me that
too much telenovela.

anywaaaaaaaay
no! which is also a word frm espanyol,
there is no hot doctors.
and ja.. i noe u like this,
greys anatomy IS A BULL
but i noe this dude..
so adorable.. and cute,
he has a twin too!
how fascinating is that?
or is it just becus i like him?
his faaaarny
he make jokes..
i make jokes..
we lauf together.. hes adorable!
hes my patient representative, so i can hang with him all the time
but i cant get notty2 here
cus im not staying here long..
so im afraid if i come back home..
im gona miss him.
did i mention hes adorable?
aya caramba! hahahha
no i get that from bart simpson.

its 12.38 am there in malaysia,
but its 9.38 pm here in mexico,
so its kinda hard for us to msn,
but if i can.. ill mention it on my msn personal message on msn
i miss malaysia too much.
everything here is in spanish.
even sponge bob is in spanish!
the only good thing about the tv is, theres
desperate housewife's! in english
and people, Eadie has a son
yes, may i repeat..
Eadie has a son!
i hope theres only what?!
expression more than
duh...alia.. ur so late...

so ok.. thats it than,
if u wana reach me cuss u miss me <- that sounds cool! ask farah or yuns for my number if u dunt knoe this people, that u dont noe me. hahahah. ooh..ohhh...ohh.. one more word i noe on my own, magarita!

funny family

2007-07-26T14:50:00.000+08:00

bukan i nak mengata my mom or even to make fun of her, but its really funny. and i wud love to share it with you. so please dont miss understand me or call me anak derhaka ok?

when we say..... she says

purple , furfle

gazebo , cazebo

nasi goreng gapi , nasi goreng gafi

Dr Chang , Dr Lang/Ng/Cheng

papaya , pafaya

kak Ila , Sheila

kak Sheila , Sheira

my auntie, mak long also have the same disease as my mom, but lain sket,

when we say.... she says

car/ kereta , motocar

lelaki handsome , lelaki lawa

perempuan cantik/ lawa , perempuan handsome

abang A`a , abang Aha

one day in sjmc;

ayah : ni ape u bawak ni?

mama : ape pulak yang i bawak?

ayah : ni atas meja ni? bukannye u pakai pon.

mama : ape benda lah orang tue ni mengarut ni?

ayah: ni lah! cream shaver i ni, yang u bawak kenape? u pakai ke?

mama : la... i ingat kan shampoo rejoice i, warna sama je.

ayah : tu la.. mak kamu ni, kalau dah tua besok, pokok kelape pon die pelok, die salah tengok, ingat ayah.

my dad has this theory he made due to my moms, "cuteness"

1. kalau la mak kamu jadi pilot, mesti kapal terbang jatuh. salah bagi order.
2. nasib baik mak kamu bukan jeneral askar yang plan nak buat perang, kalau tak mesti semua orang kena bom, salah bg information.
3. mak kamu ni, kalau tuang air pon kena pakai specks, kalau tau mesti tuang kat seluar ayah.
4. sampai sekarang ayah tak tau macam mana die boleh jadi a good lecturer. amazing.

alia&amira

2007-07-26T14:45:00.000+08:00

amira: why did u choose your mp3 red?
alia : because it looks great with my car and wallet
amira : than why is your wallet red?
alia : because it looks good with my mp3 and car
amira: ok, so u car is red because it looks good with ur wallet n mp3?
alia : no lah. who say so? i want it red cus the rider is hot,
so kereta kena la hot mcm rider die.

hoi kenkawan..

2007-07-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

again.. back to my second home, sjmc. for medical check ups and collecting stem cells.
ill be discharge tomorrow.
just to let you people to know,
i am going to mexico at this saturday
my flight is at 10 pm,
i might be staying there about a month.
the treatment is roughly 20 days, and
were planning to stay and have a holiday
at L.A L.V and Sandiego.
i am using Japan airlines instead of mas,
becus the business class tics there are more cheaper,
so i will be staying in Tokyo, Japan for 2 days,
please don't miss me too much.
hahahahah
yes i will get some souvenirs.
and capture some precious moments of me,
there.
please pray for me that the doctors are hot.
or at least there is some cute and
gorgeous patients.
i have to use another line there in Mexico,
i will text u the number later when i got it.
wish me luck.
tqverymouch.

Hide , Bandar Menjalara

2007-07-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

jap. jap. jap. Hilton

2007-07-22T13:27:00.000+08:00

things u need to knoe, becus i noe.. so now u noe.

2007-07-20T15:18:00.000+08:00

1. my first copy of this is on a tissue paper.

2. the nurses and I had never seen or found and type of ghost in the hospital.

3. every part of your body that has hair, will fall of after under going chemotherapy.

yes, u will be like a naked chicken

4. steroid, which will be given to all chemotherapy patients will make you gain weight almost

double the size you were before.

5. radiotherapy can make your hand writing from bad to worst.

6. babies, as young as 3 days old can be diagnose ad a leukemia patient

7. Flowers can kill leukemia patient easily, so don't bring flowers if u plan to give a visit.

8. except raw food, leukemia patient can eat anything that they desire.

9. there is no concrete reason why a person can get leukemia. U just get unlucky.

10. Leukemia symptoms ; - swollen / bleeding gum
- high fever , mostly at night
- very weak
- blue black spots on body
- lost consciousness

11. there is 3 common type of leukemia ;

Adults - AML

Children - ALL

Relapse - CML

12. if the desease is getting worst, it will effect your vision. you can see like ring worms

swimming around. and if your reading, the ring worms will cross the words.

13. staying in government is more fun than private hospital. Because get to walk around and talk

to the other patient.

14. there is no local k.l nurse in any k.l hospital.

15. there is no such thing as Hot Doctors. Greys Anatomy is a BULL.

16. after chemotherapy, your platelet can be as low as 1 or 2. the normal rate is 300 - 400.

therefore if you're bleeding, it wont stop. - dats why u cant go out" said mommy dearest.

17. not all ambulants are in emergency. some are just minor problems like, minor diarrhea.

18. Pizza , Mc D, KFC and Maggi mee is wat u will crave for during chemo. trust me. not rice.

19. chemotherapy can clear off all the pimples on your face and bodies. i meant Clear.

20. during chemotheraphy, patients mood will be moody most of the time. so if you plan to visit

and cheer them up with your jokes, prepare to be laughing, all by your self.

ooh.. lalala..

2007-07-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

meet my new b.f,
hes name is Patchi,
he has with me during my ups n down.
oh yes he taste great,
creamy, he is super hottie,
he looks good too, perfect golden tent,
he taste and looks absloutly gorgeous in any shape and sizes,
he will make ur dream fantasy come to live,
and yes, he is good on the bed, sofa, and cars.
so people, meet my new soulmate, Patchi.

ladies...
I noe u hate me

Padan muka FAH

2007-07-11T13:02:00.000+08:00

this is me (in a skinny version) with ajad in aquaria, holding jelly fish in a bucket.
its actually fah and her beloved ajad, but i just love to pissed her off.
this is gona make fah sooo pissed. hahhahahahahhaa. yes indeed i do love azad daud. hahahahahahhaaha
we have been together since the day that we met at citroen. hahahahahahhaha. padan muka fah.

my apek kong-kong cousin was so pissed of when i glued this picture on her door, till she hide all my clothes in her room. at all different places. so after i shower, i had to play treasure hunt. azad if ur reading, u better stop laughing now, b4 u batuk2 again.

ive got nothing to say

2007-07-09T20:17:00.001+08:00

in my new house, my room is gona be like this one. ive already bought the exac same bed. its gona be gloomy and comfy. so when u enter the room, u just feel like sleeping. i have adore country rooms forever. ive also found a lady who can make my curtains and bed sheet, toilet bowl cover, dust bin cover, door knob and cabinet cover, shower curtains, to match each other. its gona be preetyfull.

hip-hop n r&b makes my ass move by it self.

2007-07-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

i cant stand rave or techno music. it gives me a MAJOR f*ckin headache.
what ever happend to ja rule and ashanti, jay-z, tupac, diddy,
usher, fat joe, 50 cents and the other playas?
yes i adore hip hop- or some idiot calls it
hik hok

i cant stand rave,
i can puke when i hear that song. and its even worst
when ur room mate has it
on their phone.
demit.

touch me, and than just f*ck me,
till i can feel my satisfaction,
or what ever la the lyrics is that i just dont bother to listen,
now that is not verbal language to u old folks?
dont just blame the niggas n playas for ruining your
childrens language.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOh bear,

2007-07-08T22:08:00.001+08:00

do you remember when i said ill buy u something in cherating if anything that reminds me of you, well honestly i was having a blast and dint remember u at all. until i saw this. so this is your souvenir. say, thank u alia.

Cherating Best Gila

2007-07-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

once again..
cherating neva let us down. fun fun fun.
but first, we had this small room. me and fah memprotes kan diri.
but it dint work. so we did the plan B.
pujuking.
so after being fah being.. mommy-mommy,
and me being, daddy-daddy,
our phrase was
fah ; ipa tak balik selalu kat mesie.. bole la.
alia ; dah la ayah suroh org pg chemo lagi, org dah tak nak pg.
but i listen to u, now u listen to me. k daddy?
than we upgraded to the penthouse/presidential suite,
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
but we got it cheaper anyway.

and,
where else can u find a leukemia patient riding
a jet ski on the beach? u tell me?
hahaha. AKU GEMPAK! nothing can stop me from having fun.

so i ride and become a rempit laut
but not just me. with adi at the back of me. i go preng-preng! and his like
"to the max alia, to the max!" aku pon ape lagi, pusing abis la.

than it was his turn to ride.
since it was his first time expirience, i gave him 20 mins take over
while i ride for only 10 mins. and after whe exchange of position,
one big ombak langgar us and dush..
we fall.

but it was still fun.
and we dint give up we climb back the jet ski,
in the middle of the sea (takde la middle sgt)
and than the second ombak hit us frm the side,
dush.. jatuh lagi.
mind u, the ombak was daaaaamn big.

and than i was tired,
from far i can see the life guard and my dad running towards us,
trying to be the hero.
but we laugh and laugh, and i lie back while the wave
hit us back to the shore.
thanks to the life jackets that had make it all possible.

and than i saw my aunts, 4 of them
and my mom running towards me with their cuak faces,
worried if something goes wrong,
but i just cant stop laughing.
and after they see me fine and laughing, my mom smack the
back of my bald head.
and yes, i jet ski - bald.
the life guard abg siap ngorat lagi.

and than i was tired,
instead i joined the babies doing a sand castle,
and screams ombak tahatt!!
-just following the babies.-
but adi, being a macho boy,
he went back to the jet ski and ride the extra 20 mins.

and today,meaning our last day in cherating,
me,fah,my sis, adi and kak ida did
a gorgeous batik, we paint and all.
and my aunt said my batik-adi helped me-
can be sell as much as 50 cents.

yes i took some pictures,
i will upload it as soon as i edit it
.tqverymouch.

kiss me

2007-07-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Message: : People with crooked teeth
usually Kiss
BETTER than people with straight
teeth...

-- When you chew gum before you kiss,
it actually makes your breath SMELL
WORSE than before because of your
salivary glands...

// Mints work MUCH better. <3 <3 <3

`*GUYS; It is much more ROMANTiC to
kiss girls in a fancy restaurant or
UNDER THE STARS than to kiss in your
disgusting bedroom or in the movie
theaters

`*GiRLS; Just because a guy kisses you
every 10 minutes doesn't mean he’s
using you ...he's just a little
horny ;) && there`s no problem with
that !!!

-- It has been PR0VEN that when people
with the SAME Hair C0L0R kiss, it is
more R0MANTiC than that of a different
hair color!!!

[(WE D0NT KNOW WHY)]

-- your First Kiss isn’t always your
BEST Kiss

-- If you can tie a KN0T in a CHERRY
with your tongue, it doesn't mean you
are a good kisser .. it just means
your TOUNGE MUSCLE is strong

-- ALL GiRLS are NOT hoes, and ALL
GUYS are NOT PLAYERS .. EVERYONE gets
a LiTTLE H0RNY sometimes

BE A GREAT KiSSER W/ THESE TiPS

-- T0UCH HiS/HER FACE

-- RUN Y0UR FiNGERS THR0UGH HiS/HER
HAiR

-- KiSS S0FTLY AT FiRST, THEN APPLY
M0RE PRESSURE

-- H0LD Y0UR KiSSiNG PARTNER

Kissing Language (yup, it's a language)
if a kiss is the Language of Love,
then we have a lot to talk about it...

methods of Love....

+kiss on the ear--------------------
"i'm horny"
+kiss on the cheek-----------------
"we're friends"
+kiss on the hand------------------
"i adore you"
+kiss on the neck-------------------
"we belong together"
+kiss on the shoulder--------------
"i want you now"
+kiss on the lips---------------------
"i love you" or "i want you"
+holding hands-----------------------
"we can learn to love each other"
+a wink--------------------------------
-"Let's get it on"
+slap on the butt---------------------
"thats mine"
+playing with the ear----------------
"i can't live without you"
+holding on tight---------------------
"don't let go"
+looking into each other's eyes---
"let's get romantic"
+playing with hair on head-------------
"tell me you love me"
+arms around the waist -----------
"i love you too much to let go"
+laughing while kissing-----------
"i am completley comfortable w/you"

=advice=
***if you're kissing someone, close
your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

2007-07-05T21:42:00.001+08:00

this is my night light. it has a very romantic memorable story behind it. i bought it from a vintage shop in ipoh,perak.

2007-07-05T21:39:00.001+08:00

on my bday, nothing much. but it was fun.

2007-07-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

yuns and i at her surprise party. and i dint know it was her surprise party. so we both got surprise.

ayo..

2007-07-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

i think there is a toyol in my house la. that day i place my wallet in my moms room, and it disappear just like that. and all my i.c n membership cards all gone. and i cant drive anymore. tomorrow im doing my visa, and i will face a big problem, because i dont have my i.c. demit.. stupid toyol. last few days, i got 50 bucks from sumone and i put it on my table. because my wallet is no missing in action. and few days after that, the money is gone oso. if i ever jumpa the damn toyol.. i tell u, i will sekeh his bald head. i am so pissed with it. damn you stupid ghost.

oh yea.. this friday me and fah and my other family and cousins are going for a short holiday in kuantan. cant wait. where is my damn walleeeet?

i know a person

2007-06-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

i know a person,
he is not related to me. i dont even know
if he ever know that i exist. but he,
deserve much more than what he is right now.
he has dilemmas ,
issues, and bad experience on life. people judge
him by how he looks.
and for that, he have no confidence
on anything. especially to confront
the opposite gender. he has basicly no one to talk to. he trust no
one in his life. or maybe just no one cares or even bother to cater to him.

so he blog.
and blog almost everyday
talking about his day that he never or no longer looking
forward to every time he opens his eyes.
and he blog more and more because its the only way
how he can express what he had kept in his chest.
and waited so patiently, if there is any reader or a person that cares.
so that he can have a chance again. and smile every morning.
so that he can have a person to rely on. to talk to. or to cry on to.

i bet
everyday he prays, and prays. and hoping that for once, god will be fair.
and answer his problems. one by one.
so that god will send him a person from above to cater to.
to care to
to cuddle to

so
how dare you think you have been cursed?
how dare you think life is so cruel?
how dare you say god does not exist?
and how dare you believe that the world is against you,

because
and so i know a person
who deserve much more than you.

2007-06-14T11:45:00.000+08:00

i am now in the hospital doing my chemo. i noe it sounds harsh. but thank fully now after the 1st and 2nd chemo is done, my body can accept the chemo easily. i am so bored here. but thanks to my family that always here for me the cousins nephews, nieces, aunts, parents and siblings. with out you people, i will be sucking my toe of boredom. And also thanks to bear for visiting me yesterday together with your sweet kimberly. bear next time.. dont forget the French fries ok?
im pray9ing that i will be ok tomorrow so that i can be discharge tomorrow.

oh my god the food here saks. thank god theres alots of restaurants here. and i can even fine Japanese. and because of this room have been burning my fats with the cold and low air condition temperature i am always in hungers. and sleepy. so basically i go online, i watch tv, i eat and sleep. fun right? yea... way fun.

im just blogging cus im bored here.

toodles.

2007-06-10T23:52:00.001+08:00

once upon a time,
theres this boy, his name is kepoyoan. he has a secrect lover. and his name is jack. ( not a real name) since they were gay, they decided to hushh-hushh their relationship. one day, kepoyoan and jack went out for a party at night with their other friends. And they were laughing and eating and having soo much time. as time goes by, kepoyoan was chatting with his close girl friend, lola. and lola said her crush had finally confess to her and they were together ever since. they are now together for 2 weeks. so kepoyoan ask her who was the lucky man. and she slowly pointed to jack.
and than this happnd.

(not A real story)

i am in laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaavvvvv

2007-06-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

hensem dohhh... oh my god i had finally found my prince charming. fah i dont care! i like him. he is so macho be-onnn macho ness.. brat pit kalah ok? n his voice when he sings.. my goodness.. i just melt instantly... ladies.. go away from him. he is sooooo my dewa. n i am sooo ur dewi shawal. call me if u read this k shawal...

CORRECTION...

2007-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

so sorry. im doing chemo again. after having a long chat with the doctor again. parents had decided to do chemo for 2 more rounds than ill go to mexico and have fhun! hahahahhaaha. ye la sangat tu.. so hope fully if fahs is having a break, we might go 2gether2 ok?

yucks..

2007-06-08T02:05:00.001+08:00

i noe right.. he is so fugly. ive decided to talk about this dude is becus.. mens have been look up to him for..wat so ever reasons. not only his ugly.. he is also a retard that cant talk properly,and has a funny voice other than kermit the frog, he is also a species of toyol. n his ears... he can fly together with jumbo. n yet people pay so much to get his action figure. hes a nightmare.

hello, yellow, mello, jelly-o!

2007-06-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

peoplee tq for those bday mesages on friendster or phone. sorry if i reply late, becus of cdt difficulties.
gosh im old. sory i dint blog and on9 dat much.
i hate streamyx. but now i can use it normally. i miss u who ive alwis msning with. with out u people, my nights will be fatning. due to the late night shows n nice hot coco.. yum..
not to mention ive just made my self a great bufallo wings while watching hitch just now. more yums...

fahs coming back on the 30th, so stop asking when is she comeing back. becus trrust me, as i knew her my whole life.. she will scream at u.

julius homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
just for a week. cus the NEW owner is going back to where he was born n we need to take care of him for awhile. ( incase u dont knoe, his a cat)

im moving in 2 months i guess. ill have a house warming party. and i will invite all of u lucky ducks to come n enjoy foods n good laughters. (just dont make joke of my hair-i swear i will heret u into the pool!)

um.. wat else eyh.. oh ive put back 6 kg. hahahaha. darn french fries and patchi !

sumore..sumore.. oh yea.. im sick. so about that..
becus of my good results after 1st and 2nd chemo..parents,family and i had decided to stop my chemo therAPy and doing the alternative ways. so im going to mexico,(yes i will get u key -chains and the mexican round hat with bells) at the oasis of hope hospital in the end of this month- google it, it makes miracles. i wish i will have mine there. i dont believe in fairy tales. but i do believe in miracles. i mean i have to. and than after the treatment.. were planning of goin to L.A and New York. wooop-peee-doooo~!!!

so wish me luck my lovely lovers.

im homeee

2007-05-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

im homeeeeeeee.
its been 2 weeks i gues. but this wednesday im going back to hospital for my second chemo. this time not in hospital ampang anymore, but in sjmc. its only 4 days chemo but maybe 5 days admit in the hospital.

ok since everyone ask. im not sure where is the room and what floor. but fah, dont worry. my mom is gona book a nice room for me. she ask me to tell u that. so people, there is no visiting hours and no limitation of visitors. so peeps, lets berkampung there! yuns and farah, if u tak datang, putus kawan ok? becus sjmc n taylors , they are like neighbors ok?

fah , if u dont tell me the exact date of ur flight, im gona pretend that i duno u when u visit me. ill make the guards campak u in the kolam. u tell me ok? demit.

i miss u ampang hspital!

2007-05-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

Since most of u guys knew about my leukemia, which I have no idea how it gets so damn far, I decided to post my experience in the hospital for a month and share some information about leukemia. If u have nothing else to do, do read it. Its quite interesting. It from the 6^th day I was in hospital until 2 days before I went back home.

25^th march 2006

Today is the 6^th day im in this hospital ive just discover that I am sick. Ive been carry a blood disorder since I am not sure when. The blood disease is called leukemia. A minute ago the nurse just taken my weight. so much weight lost. It suppose to be a dream come true for me. But It’s the other way round.

Let me tell you how I discover about this disease. For the last half a month, my back wisdom tooth is coming out. So ive been crying like a baby ever since. As time goes by, I realize my gum is swollen more and more everyday. It almost cover my teeth. So I decided to go to the dentist and check out what Is really wrong with my teeth. The dentist told me that theres alots of plaque in the gum and that’s why it make my gum infection. So the dentist told me that I need to scale and wash out the gum. And so I did, but the swollen did not change. Its as worst as like before I did the scaling.

Day after day, my wisdom tooth is getting more and more irritating and more hurtful. Ive been to all pharmacist, and I don’t know how much pain killer pills have I taken. Ive been to 3 dentist and they all say its normal. Its just that my gum is extra thick. So they remove the gum that had been covering my wisdom tooth so that its easier for the teeth to grow. Both of the side of my gum was remove. But the gum that had been covering my teeth still remains the same. Its covering almost all of my teeth. My teeth looks like a 3 yrs old teeth. So small and covered with the gum. Therefore I did not eat properly. I did not eat solid food for almost a month. I ate oats or cereals once a day. And drank milo 3 times a days. That’s all. I did not use the function of my teeth for a month. My dad was really worried. I started to have fever and my face was so pale. I look my self at the mirror and I could not recognize my self. So he ask me to go to another dentist. He said this dentist is really good. So on the day that I met the dentist hr gave me antibiotics and he said, after a week if the swollen did not reduce, I need to go to g.h hospital, because there is a specialist dentist there that maybe can help me even more. As I predict, the swelling still did not reduces. So the last resort, I need to go to g.h hospital. So as I arrive they do the usual dentist stuff, open up my mouth, putting in the stick with the small mirror snd all. And they agree that the swollen is unusual. So they x-ray my teeth and its perfectly normal.

A bit relieve actually when they say that. And than they gave me scare me again. They going to take my blood for a test. That’s when all the drama begun. Crying and worrying, and shocking. So they send me in the ambulant straight away and the mobile ran like a mad hyena. As I arrive to the more convenient hospital called Ampang Hospital, my dad was there waiting for me. And my mothers eye is still red and watery. I was more relaxed actually. But scared. Scared if I have a little more time to breath in this planet. And so they gave me a bed to lay, due to the condition that I was in, I could not even stand up at the moment. Despite my parents, Arifahs mom and one of my cousins was also there, anxiously waiting for the famous Dr Chang to explain about my disease. Dr Chang is currently one of the best Dr in Asia. His specify in blood diseases. So we waited and waited, until one tall , very sweet looking and calm and warm man came and smile to us. So as he explain, the told me to put my studies on hold for about a year, because this hospital is going to be my second house. But they need to take some blood from my spine to confirm if I have leukemia and what kind. Apparently, leukemia has 12 kinds all together.

Two days after they confirm it. Yes I do I have leukemia, and it’s the AML kind. 75% cure able. That’s good news. But the sucky part is, after my medication in over and I will be all right, but, it may come back in between about five years. And if it does, it will be worst than before. More chemos and more powerful chemos. So I need to be very-very careful.

As time goes by, my moms eyes getting brighter and brighter, and I know she has been secretly to surau and cry, because she still cannot face the fact that im sick. But after a few days, she starting to stand up and face it with her chin up. I guess that’s just mothers. Shes just doing her job. Worrying.

Ive made friends there. Theres about 5 of us with the same luck. We click immediately. Every night we have a meeting in the t.v room. There we talk about everything. But in between all five of us, im the different ones. Because im the only ones that lives in a suburbia area. One of them from perak, Pahang, and the others I did not ask. All of them doesn’t look sick at all. One of them, the oldest, shes 24 but she have the mind of our age. Her name is Suria. Im worried about her, shes too brave. Shes on chemo therapy and yet she walks around and talk with us. She throws away her medicine because she hates it. She quarrel with the doctors too many times because she refuse to wear hospital clothes. And the doctors gave up. So she’s walking around with her t-shirt and shorts with her snow cap. She even goes to the mc d in front of the hospital while its raining. She sleeps at 2 am because she talks to the nurses that works night shifts. She thought me to be brave. Or not, I will be lying down on the hospital bed and wondering around.

Time after time, one by one left me. No, not as in to heaven, but they went home. Because they have been in the hospital much earlier than me. First it was this Chinese girl I cant remember her name. Than its Ain, and than Huda, and than Suria. They all left me alone.

Since there is no first class in this hospital, so I went in the second class. More convenient. Theres air conditioner and only four people in a room. The 3^rd class has no air cond. And its more crowded. No limitation for patients. But all three patient in the room are much older than me. But there educated so my mom make friends with them. They click perfectly. Since im a people person, I make friends with al of them. Get to know them. And ask them questions. Because they’ve been trough it more than I have. But as usual, they all left me. One by one. But when one went out, in with the new. So we just hope to god that the new one, we can click just like before.

The nurses here are all pretty and nice. Damn nice. All of them know my name. and we make friends. I knew all 15 of their names and where they are from. Mostly they are from Kelantan, perlis, terrenganu, penang. No kl-ians. So they have his funny way of talking that I always make fun of. Now, since my white blood is very low. Due to the chemo, they have to inject my arm with some medicine. And I cannot, I repeat I cannot, as much as fobia, and allergy of needles. I hate them. Every night they have to pock it in my arm. That is when they laugh until they cry. Because I will do anything to not get pock. I beg them and try to bribe with them and yet they still pock me every night. Theres this ones I pretend to go to sleep when they came. So one of the nurse said “ ha, dia dok tidok ni lagi senang kita cucok ni, Liza, pi amik jarom yang besak-besak tu” so I woke up with laughter. But still, I got pock.

The doctors, some are great and some are sour. Dr Chang is always the best. He pampers me a lot. I tell him when I can go home. And Im the one who tells him what I can eat and what medicine I will only take. He only nodded and smile. But still all the decision only made by him. He just loves to paper me. The doctors will come every morning to every patient to look at their progress. So since Dr Chang is the head of the hospital, hes very busy. And he comes and sees me only 3 times a week. So I need to be observe by the other doctors. Dr Sinari. Shes unmarried. And its so obvious why. She a nice lady, but her words are more sharp than the needles that pocks me every night. And theres once she scold me because I put my lap top on my eating table. But I don’t let all this silly things to get me upset so I ask her back, where else can I put it? On the floor? She was quite upset with me for a while. That incident makes all the nurses talking. Because she is suppose to be very Garang. But I don’t care. She once said that she would strangle me if I don’t wear my mask all the time. What kind of doctor would say that. The other doctor is Dr Lau. Hes famous too. Every patient hates him. Hes worst than Sinari. But not me. I kindda enjoy with him. Hes my morning entertainment. He will argue

with me in a small matter and I will debate with him until he shakes his head leaf to right. Hes a problematic guy. He gaves problems to people by scolding patients with a small maters. And there’s one more, Dr Azlan. I like him after Dr Chang. He’s funny. He’s very father like. I can ask him about everything. Everything that I want, including about hes hot 22 yrs old son. He said he wants me to marry him. So that he wont be bored when his old and he will have cute grand children’s. and I ask him grandchildren’s? and he said he wants a lots of grandchildren’s, he wants to make a football team. Hes the kind of doctor that sits on your bed and talk and talk and talk so that you wont think about your disease that much. I wonder if he does that to every patient. But the nurses said no. so I guess im his favorite patient. But I still like Dr Chang more. Sometimes when he dint see me for a long time I would scold him and he will give me the doctors menu for a day. The patients food here sucks! It doesn’t taste anything. And its eastern food. The doctors menus are westerns. So sometimes I get the western menu, thanks to Dr Chang. As I said he loves to pampers me. Maybe because he doesn’t have any kids.

Now lets talk about my chemo. Its called Arasi. It pretty powerful. I have to go trough it for 7 days and the chemo takes 12 hours. Chemo is just like water drip. When u watch Greys Anatomy or E.R or House or other medical stories, can see they will insert a tube in a patients hand and there will be a bag or a bottle of sodium water to keep the patient energize. Yea, that’s more like it. But in the bottle is chemo. Chemo is fine, but the effect is very bad. My body was like on fire. So hot. And my temperature rise up until 40 deg.

Normal is 36. I have fever for a week. And it effected on some of my body parts and organs. My legs has bruisers inside. And its has lumps witch is very- very painful. I could not walk for 2 weeks but since I was very stubborn at certain times I force my self to walk because I need to go to toilet. And I need two people to hold my arms. When I walk, I cry. I cant stand the pain in my legs. The bruises goes up to my tights.

Actually after the first chemo, I have 10% of mortality. I almost left this world actually. But the inner strength that I have was incredible, the doctor said. I know the people down here need me more than the big guy up there. My body was very weak. They had given me an antibiotic that my body had rejected. For three days, at night I shivers. The nurses said its normal, usually patients will shivers after taken the antibiotics. But the shivering was very bad. My bed shivers together with me. My mom hug me tight and she shivers along. The next day, my mom had fever so my dad had to took care of me. The second night was the same. But this time its getting more bad, the shivering was longer and more. I try to stop the shiver but I end up crying because I was tired strengthen my body to stop the shivering. On the third night of the antibiotics, was still the turn of my dad to take care of me. This time it was chronic. The shivering was too much. Until I could not breath, they gave me the oxygen tube but it was not enough. Thank god it wasn’t the my moms turn to take care of me or else she might have collapse seeing me shiver, says my dad. So they send me to icu as fast as they can. I was gasping for air. My face was blue. After they place me onto the icu ward, they gave me this mask that covers my mouth and nose and it fills with oxygen. Every time I inhale, my head will be push towards. So if outside people look at me its like im really gasping for air.

Fah came down to kl just to visit me. I make her cry when I was at the icu ward. But it was nothing. I tried to tell her that I was not in pain anymore but I couldn’t , because the mask was still on. She delayed her ticket. Instead of going home on Tuesday, she went home on Thursday. That was not necessary. The reason why I could not breath was, my lung has infection. A bad one. If they dint send me to icu fast enough I might leave my love ones. So I had t stay there for 3 days. 3 days in icu was like in prison. Because no one can visit you and my parents cant sleep with me. And I cant walk at all. They pock a tube in the part that I pee so that I can pee in a bag at the side of my bed. And I had to poop in diapers. Thank god no pooping during icu. And that’s when they took out my tube in my hand and they change it to my neck. Yes ladies and gents, theres a tube in my neck now. But of Corse they put me to sleep when they did it. Damn doctors. I dint know that they were going to do that. But after a while ive got use to it. Before they have to pock the tube in my vain on my hands every 3 days so that it wont get infected by germs. That’s when I start to scream. And when they need my blood for blood test they will take it from my arm. They pock meeee.. I hate getting pock. But now since the tube is in my neck I don’t have to be pock. They will take my blood from there and this tube last long. So less pock and more smiles. But I will still get pock every night for the medicine.

dear fah,

2007-02-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

dun worry, snowwy takkan lonely. with the maid that u hav, and her mouth that function like 7E, never close down. but yea.. im still gona bring julius to ur hse. hes kinda lonely now days. cus i kinda kill cleo. and hes getting really horny. he tried on twinkle, but she was just so garang. so im gona c if snowie is not that garang or maybe worst? the baby is fine babe, oh u noe that day, mak ngah bg nurul drink pepsi and than gave her ubat, the one thats on liquid base, and 2 mins after that she puke out! hahahha it was so funny. everyone lauf and my mom cant stop saying how stupid mak ngah is to mix all the pepsi and medicion. Kak Ida keep on asking me "bile nak web cam ni?" tu la babe.. cepat2 la u get the internet conction. u.c everybody misses u. and dont worry about your mom, she retiring and my mom is taking a holiday for 3 months to take care of nenek. Mak long wont get bored here. i promise u dat. im so glad natasha can cook for u. so babe, eat well, get enuf sleep, study hard, and party harder!!

wee doo, wee dooo....

2007-02-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

We can never be alone. NEVER. We need family or friends or someone special in our life. Its imposible to just walk alone and wake up knowing that u have no one else but yourself. Well you are wrong. You will never be alone. Everytime when you are sad, there will be someone there to work their buts off just to make you smile. Even if there is no concern to them but they will always ask you how are u? how was ur day today? And yet we cannot see that. We never realise that. And we never appriciate that. And even worst, sometimes we take things for granted. Ive realise my mistakes. I talk to them or appriciate them if i need or want something for them. And sometimes i did not cater them as how ther cater me. Its funny how a human being can be so blind and yet they can see everythng else. The things that is infront of your nose, you will never see, but the one who is at the back of u, u will turn ur back. So im sorry for anyone that i had burden their lives with my problems and my needs. So people if you have a person that is always with you when your down, and trying to make your world up side down and a person who is always, always be there for you no matter how far you are when u need them the most, hold them close. Dont ever let go. Because they just might be the only person to give u the reason for you to wake up in the morning and smile again.

dear fah,

2007-02-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

This is Kak Siti`s new born baby. Our youngest nephew. his face is not that red anymore. his name is Amirul. Yes.. his eyes are sepet.. i think hes ur replacement fah, one sepet is out, in with the new.

my Sunday, and amazing Monday..

2007-02-20T18:17:00.000+08:00

Last two days, me and my family balik kampung to Tanjung Malim, Perak, my dads side of the family. Hyra, my cousin is joining too. Both of us planned to suprise her hubby with a cake, because its his bday on that day. but it kindda slipped trough my conversation with one of my auncle.DARN~! But before celebrating and all, we went to this river to mandi-manda. omg it was fun! all of us went there and jump out from this HUGE rock. it was deep, i dive in and i still cant touch the ground. We terjun in,* i cannot say we dive because we dove with a stupid style, some scream like tarzan and some do all these kind of stunts that a mother will never let her lil boys to watch* so.. yea, we terjun in, one by one. all of us did.. and i mean ALL of us. Syok wooo~! its an expirience that no other can face here in this busy bustling city. But desolately, its impossible to take my phone and snap pictures while playing around with the other clowns. and after that, when we realise that our stomach is playing orchestra inside, we headed back to the house and had our heavy dinner there. i slept there for a night with abg joe and kak ya, (Hyra). the next day, they sent me home,but before we went to Cineleisure and bought tickets to watch Ghost Rider. When we arrive back to my house, Joe had to go some whre to do a lil work, and we took this advantage for coloring my hair with a new color. My mom was amazed how we can do it by ourself and need not to go to hair saloon.

mama : What color u nak dye ni?

alia : BLONDE!

mama : Ha.. bagus la tu..

*after 15 seconds..

mama : apa? blonde? kamu dye blonde, aku bakar rambot tu nanti.

*saaaaape kate Aunty Rohana tak brutal skarannng??

but ofcorse it wasnt blonde. i oso not sure wat color it is, anyways.. i wana talk more bout Kak Ya...

2007-02-20T17:59:00.001+08:00

So, this is Hyra Mohammad. Shes 26 but with the i.q of 3 1/2 yrs old. kidding la.. its 3 yrs old. by this pic, do i need to explain more? i rest my case.
Anywho,yes she is definately one of my favourite cousin. Yes i am buyers. why do i love this women, simply because of the tendency of making you lauf and her spontaneous yet unintentionally attitude that will make u laught till u cry. this chick is adventurous. she is so, untill she is brave enought to dye peoples hair to a color that is so.. strong. thank god it end up pretty good.. we do not argue or quarrel that much, basically, our ability and the way that we see things and understand thing is about the same. but sadly, abg joe thinks that i am more matured. * in ur face!*

2007-02-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

This is she and her hubby, abg joe. the coolest dude walking on earth. both of them are a puuurfect couple. but u should see them arguing about asam boi, talking about, whos gona be the coolest parents, the hot tempered mommy or the "lantak kau lah" daddy. i cant wait for them to have the lil hyra`s and lil joe`s. we shud do outing activity more ofthen la, nest time we go holiday at some resort la pulak.

2007-02-20T17:40:00.000+08:00

This is her and me. at the curve, 2 hours after she experimenting me with the new hair color. And 10 mins before watching late night movie with abg joe,abg iwan,abg ifi and amira. the movie ; ghost rider. daaamn macho man.. uh.. but when it comes to fight the bad guys, its kinda stupid. total rate.. maybe about 4/5. but people, go and watch, the effescts and the way Nicolas Cage ride the bike uh.. cair beb!

sakit..

2007-02-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

im bored.. and im hungers. very hungers. but i cant do anythng much.. yes i can eat, but only soft diet for 2 weeks. it may sounds light, but its very much heavy. soft diet is a kind of food that u cant chew much. this is because, my back wisdom tooth is coming out.. yes people.. yeouch! i cant eat laaaa if i munch on junk food..ill die. seriously, it hurts like bloody hell, ive ask the dentist to take it out but she said she cant. its too early. sakit woooo.. i hav to suffer like dis for 2 weeks.. aish... and ive been eating pain killers like m n m`s. thank god now i can smell my food. atleast i can enjoy a lil bit. but what to enjoy when u can only eat soup and porridge and boiled stuff? go kfc; makan mashed potatoes, mc d; bubur ayam, pizza hut; mushroom soup, mamak stall ; roti bakar, omg people.. this is worst than fasting month. and when i sleep i have to sleep on the opposite side of my wisdom tooth. 2 weeks.. 2 weeks.. im dead la.. and tonight, my dad is taking us out for japaneese. bagus la sesangat...

dear fah..

2007-02-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

O.M.G Fah, Kak Siti just delivered a gorgeous red face baby boy !! and hes not gona knoe who u are... hahahahahahahahhaha!

ehem.. ehem...

2007-02-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

yea, yea, i know ive been crapping about being alone on valentines day and all. but hey, unexpected things do happend u noe?

with my name all over it

2007-02-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

oh,shut up n just let me be happy..

2007-02-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

i like daisies more anyway!

2007-02-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

who cares if u have sum1 to celebrate valentine with. who cares if u can walk around happily with a dozen of red roses in ur arms. i like daisies!! who cares u can go dating2 n movies and expensive dinner. u can only go out with one person. i can go moooooore. i can do all those stuff with a whole bunch! i got;

nellie
tina
fah
yuns
farah
kimchi
kevin
putri
julius
urm..
alexandro
urm..
jamin
urm..urm...
jumanah!
ha..urm..
got some more.. got..
um.. demit!
um..
alaa! atleast thats more than one person
haaaaa! u beat that.
bloody hell u lucky coulples.
Happy Valentines people...

dear fah,

2007-02-13T13:30:00.000+08:00

mmg la i buat my blog tersurat-tersirat.. if too obvious, nanti org bace they terasa pulak.. aish..
im missing u like crazy la.. i called u tade org answer, sad tau. the kerabats are fine, no worries, apple is now so actively talking. nenek is getting beta, the doc gav her this pills that will make her hormon more happy. so shes smilling for no reason now. thanks to the pills.. the doc said that since atok left us, she had not been really happy, and that kills her happy hormon. but now i guess its back. when can u actually on9 dear? they wana meet u on webby. i cant imagine how they would act. so keep on writing to me tru ur blog k? and call me back mate!!

2007-02-12T02:05:00.000+08:00

its 2.06 am n i still cant sleep
n everyone is so nicely tight sleeping in their comfy bed and pillow and blanky, but i hav to be awake bcus i cant sleep. stupid pills.. i had my flu ,medication that make me k.o from 5.30 to 8.30 pm. and now i cant sleep. great.. my msn mate who usually keep me acompany till 3 - 4 am has this new rules frm the mom that she will un plug the net cable b4 12, i guess. hish.. bear.. bear.. now when hes not around and being emo in msn , i hav to go and friendstering, my friendster and ending up sending almost 9 testimonials at people and adding people that i dunno.
aisho.. my dad kate je nak teman pg dentist, and now im due almost 2 month. i need to go tomorrow. with or without daddy. class is at two today.. aish. malas gile.. kdu is getting sakier than ever.. oh yea.. fah.. make sure by next year, theres an empty room for me. cus im joining u in melbourne next year!
y out of suddent? well.. theres nothing left here for me anyways..
all of my frens chage, i bare knoe them at all, my prince charming who ive waited for so long is making me sick of waiting,im rejecting other dudes becus of him..tak boleh jadi ni..
might as well go to melbourne and start all over again.. with fah in the same roof..
cant wait.

2007-02-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

to the ladies and fellas that left me for the bloody uitm and other places.. pls cum back during the hollidays in c.n.y and lets go to tropicana club and hav much..much.. fun again! we go swim-swim yea? i lost weight ni... cun sket pakai bikini.. hahahaha

putri,
felmi,
isa,
acap,
nishant,
emri,
the twins,
ntah sape-sape lagi.. lupe plak name korangs..
u noe wat that means.,, cus u guys lame tak balik.
bloody hell uitm.

miss u lads and ladies la. balik la wei.. balik laaa...

mine was horrid, tq.

2007-02-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

this week is the worst week ever. i hav never had this kind of situation my whole freakin life.
what a freeking dicking week;
everythng did not go as wat i tot it wud be. all plans cancelled. yesterday i was so sick. me and jumanah went out the night before and finish the whole big bottle of sisha and the next morning out throut soar like mad. as tho we swallow a giant cactus. so yestreday i slept frm 12.30 morning to 6.30 evening and a woosyness feeling continue till 2 am. fook man. ive never felt so woozy and moody my whole entire life. i was screaming for no reason. and bathing for 5 times. becus of the bloody weather is so hot, i swear i dont wana go to hell. and my phone has not rang for days. wth? wat hppend to going out and watching movie? everybody is too darn busy for it? since when? gosh.. ive been getting so much mail from the friendster and its all about
my frns blog update. wtf? u think i freaking care about the update? not to mention i hav two giangantic pimple on my freaking face. just wat i need. its so huge, if theres oxigen and water, people can live on it. and my 3 weeks of flu is so fookingly stubborn. i think my flu is in love with me. i cant smell my food. mom bought me a new perfume frm dubai, and i cant smell it. even if u spray it insede my stuffy nose hole. nada, nothing. and im scaring julius like a mad cow becus ive been sneezing after 10 seconds. i drank too much hot tea and honey, till it burns my tounge. dosent matter how hard i try, my eyes will only open half wide. i look like a new born chinese baby every morning. i cant even watch my astro, there is always no signal, i dunno who to blame. becus there is no reason for it not to get any signal. there is no cloud. only sun. the sun is like shinnig right above till it make me sit in front of the refrigerator and drink cold milk. and so i decided to go on9 and msning, c if my frens can entertainme, this fuckong msn keep on asking me to troubleshoot, i swear if i hav a gun, ill troubleshoot the person who invented msn. and sometime, i miss my cousin so much, i cant do annythng, she in melbourne
having so much fun and the weather is cool, and yet im here stuck with the same thng over and over again. i cant wait for this week to be end, and hoping that the next week is horriblely great just like how horrid bad it is for this week. so... thats how basicly how my week has gone,
how was urs?

2007-02-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

my conversation with tina that will make ur head shake from left to right..
alia ; tina
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
semue org putus cinta
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
kan?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
perasan tak?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yeke
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
haah
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
erkk
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yerp
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
sape lagi wei?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
dis yer valentine sakss
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yerp
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
btl
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
tp aku tak
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
aku sentiasa sayang kat dia
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
hes the only one
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
one and only
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sayangku
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
gud la if ur happy
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
im happy too...
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
i mean
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku happy gak skrg
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
takde pun sedih
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
dah ok dah
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
malas la aku nak cite dgn kau
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
lembab mcm babi
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
la
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku lak kene mrh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku kan tgh dgr citer kau nie
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko pk la wei
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sejak bile aku ade lelaki
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sejak bile aku ade sayang aku?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko tak terpk ke?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ye ye
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
skrg ni aku terpk
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
kau syg kat dia
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
tapi kau takleh nak g date dgn dia on valentines day
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
cuz dia blum jd bf kau
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sebab tu la
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
skarang ko nak terpk?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
jd tadi ko patot tanye
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sape aku punya "sayang"
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ok
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sekarang ko tnye aku
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ohh ok
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
sape syg kau?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ehh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
jap aku blur
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko tgk
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku dh paham
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
aku marah ko terase
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
hahahhahahhahahha
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
k k dah paham
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ala kau pun ayat bahase mesia kau
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku pening skit
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
sebab kau repeat benda tu
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
org lain ok je
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
so aku cm blur2
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ko je xtra lembab
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
tula pasal
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
tapi takde ar lembab sgt
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku cume blur jer
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
lembab la tu
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
ok skarang ko tanye
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
sape aku punya sayang
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
aku tanya kau sape syg kau?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
yea laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
tak paham lagi ke?
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ohh
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
ha sape syg kau?
babethathadbeenblessed... says:
julius (my male cat)
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
mana kau tau?
*commiting suicide..

yes, i am talking about you

2007-02-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

why does everybody change? why does changes happends to a person? why cant the same sweet innocent trust worthy person who u used to be just remains the same? why cant i just be blind enought untill i cant see how you change? how you change your attitude,your words,your language,your type of music, your fav food,everythng. we used to be like bonnie and clyde, bobbi and whitney, paris and nicole. we use to click so good. we use to trust eachother. nothing, not a thing can break us down. to tear us apart. even the lacturer, yes.. we will change places because we were too noisy, but in a minute, we well crawl on the floor like a weak soldier in a bush and sit together again, and do our same routine everyday. but now, as i noe u more, you are not the same person who u use to be. you are not the same person who i friend with. i am no more your priority, i will always be the last person you would think of. the only time we will be together, is when u hav nothing else to do or to bother, or when u need my help,when you need a shoulder to cry on, when u need our boring period to be fufill. than my phone starts to sing. but when ur laughing,having so much fun,beeing hi of laughter,full of good foods in a great place with a great person,feeling cold when ur in a cinema,making so much noice because you just cant stop laughing,and begging the person to stop making your tummy stretching so big because u laught so much, i will be in my blanky, wondering.. why dint u called? what are u doing? where are u going to? with who? why not me? why not me annymore? dint we use to have so much fun together? dint we use to spend so much time talking on the phone? dint we always get scholded frm our parents because we c too much of eachother? wat hapend to those days? what had happend? did u even realise that u chaged? that your leaving me behind slowly? that ur leaving me alone when i needed u the most? why do i have to be so unblind? why cant i just cant see it ? why do i have to realise the situation? why do i have to be so alert? why do i even need to noe u for the first place? why do i hav to be with you long enuf untill i can realise that ur stripes are becoming spots now? just why, why do u have to change?

cleopetra

2007-02-02T14:17:00.000+08:00

im so sorry sayang

2007-02-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

the first time i saw u,
u were at the pet shop,
tigger was gone,so thats why i wanted a new cat,
u caught my eye, we were having such an amazing chemistry,
ur fluffy coat, grey and cream,
i fell in love with you right away,
i begged my dad to buy u, everyday i went to the pet shop and making sure that ur havent belong to someone else yet,
untill the next week, my dad says ok to have u,
i was so happy, i dun care how much u cost, i just want you,
and i can feel that we were really bond to eachother,
after u were mine, i couldnt sleep,
ill make sure u sleep first, that ill slowly sleep beside you,
i wont even move becus im scared if i woke u up,
day by day, u grown so beautifully,
so gorgeous, i cannot wait for you to give me ur kittens,
i want you to be a mommy so much,
i wanted more little cleopetra,
oh my god.. u grew so fast.. u were sooo adorable,
i cant see me feeling sad, u will slowly come and cheer me up with your naughty attitude,
i remember the first time i bath you, u cant stop crying, and i had to use the hair dryer to dry u up,
so that u wont feel cold, i gave u so much attention, i love u soo much sayang, i balik rumah so early just to meet you, everytime im on vacation, and when im back, ill search for u,
and we cuddled eachother to sleep,
yesterday i went in my brothers room, u dint want to come in, u stayed out side the door, i wonder why, you wasnt that close to me,
today, i was suppose to pick up my sister, and visit grandma at the hospital,
i was rushing, and careless,
i dint see whats down under my car, i dint realise, so i started the car, and start moving the car,
n i felt such a big bump, i tot that i bump onto a bottle, like u always use to,
and out of suddent, i remembered u, i look at the back, and it was u,
u were jumping so high, u were such in pain, blood coming out ur mouth, i stop the car in the middle of the road, and ran to u, i pick u up, n screamed as load as i can, i ask u to hold on, so that i will bring you to the vet, but slowly..i feel ur heart pupming so fast.. so fast.. n u were moving as if u wre in electric chair. i still scream, and pet your soft body, i cudnt feel ur bone anymore, i scream and scream, i dont care about the neighbour, and suddently, u stop breathing, i cant feel ur heart pumping.. no more pulse..
i cant face it, i cant believe it, i was the one who chose u, who wanted u so badly, and im the one who killed u, how could i do such thng, i will never forgive my self,
dun worry sayang, ur in heaven, ive dig ur grave so deep, so deep so that u cant hear anythng, u will feel peace once again, and i dig ur grave so wide,so wide u wont feel any thng around you, and everyday i will pray to god, so that we will meet again one day,
in heaven.. im so sorry sayang.. i tak sengaja.. i love u cleo..
i love u so much.. i love u cleopetra..
i noe its all my fault.. please forgive me sayang, and if i have the chance to c u again one day,
i will never let u go..
im so sorry sayang..

tot i was alone..

2007-02-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
i mean
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u know
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
wen we want sumething
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yg kite btl2 nak
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yg kite btl2 syg
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
kite susah nak dpt
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
its not fair tau
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
cuz sume of them get wut they wunt
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n sum of em plak tak dpt ape yg dorang nak
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
its really unfair
erynalia ... says:
i noe
erynalia ... says:
tapi
erynalia ... says:
ape nak buat
erynalia ... says:
u dun just get wat u want
erynalia ... says:
all the time
erynalia ... says:
just thnk like dis la
erynalia ... says:
everythng hppnds for a reason
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
yeah i knoe
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
but..
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u know
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
for eg like u
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u have feeling towerds him
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n im pretty sure ts hard for u to kill d filings
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
n
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u know its not fair tau
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
mcm
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
he deserve to hv u
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
u deserve to dpt dia
[ i can b ur fav0urite gurl ] says:
but yet
erynalia ... says:
ntah la wei
erynalia ... says:
all i can do is sabar

fahs last night out- seriously this time..

2007-01-27T22:30:00.001+08:00

funny.. i tot that the lsat night out with fah and the ladies was the new year celebration, cus fah is going to melbourne with jamin n ester. so on that night, i said my last good byes to jasmin, hasina,ester,yusnie and all, as if im not gona meet them more often due to fahs leaving. than theres another bye-bye suprise dinner at citron b.b That night was fun! and i was sad again so said our so-called last goodbye and kiss soooo many pipi`s. all kinds of pipi`s,with blusher,without blusher or powder but no male pipi`s. so..as i tot that there will be no more outing with the ladies.. than theres yesterday night. but this time its the last time. The last dinner. it was small, we only ajak like the close ones.but only half yg jadi pergi.. theres fah,me,yusnie,hasina,kristin and dearest jasmin. we had our dinner at Chiao at b.b. and than..just like our tradition..sisha after dinner at lecka-lecka in b.b. fun!fun!fun!
oh dear.. am gona miss my bitches so much man..
and than we go pee-wee at j.w marriots toilet. gehahaha

ur wrong if u judge us by this pix.were damn innocent.. betol wei..

2007-01-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

2007-01-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

yuns n i

with my laides..

2007-01-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

frm left, hasina, arifah,kristin,yusnie,and i

tumpang ye j.w marriot.. nak wee-wee jap.. x)

2007-01-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

frm left, yuns,middle, alia and hasina

alias new fav song

2007-01-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

The Sweet Escape

If I could escape I would but,First of all, let me sayI must apologize for acting stank & treating you this way

Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator

Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold
If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world

& I could be your favourite girl (forever),
Perfectly together

Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)

I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

I want to get away, to our sweet escapeI want to get away,
You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling pointCome help me out,

I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me aroundInstead of clowning around,

let's look for some common ground
So baby, times get a little crazyI've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me

I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me

If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world&
I could be your favourite girl (forever),

Perfectly together& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet (sorry boy)I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)

I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo (If I could escape)Woohoo, yeehoo (If I could escape)

if i could dream..

2007-01-22T09:57:00.000+08:00

i really do wish,
i would tell the whole world that im urs,
i would pretend to like your kind of music,
would order your favourite dish and drink, so that i could feel ur here,
i would save the last chicken drumstick for you,
i would learn your fav song, and when u had nightmare at night, i will sing it to u, till u fall asleep,
i would learn how to cook your fav dish and suprise u in the college one day,
i would always say ur right, and even tho we both know that ur wrong,
when ur cold in cinema, i would pretend that i was cold, and let u hug me..so u can feel warm from my body heat,
i would always say that your hair is perfect, even when u just wake up,
i would always be your back bone, even when you dont need them,
i will fill up ur empthy hole in your heart, with my love, care, attention,
i would travel as far as i can just to always be there with you,
i would bring you hot chicken soup if u have fever or cold,
i would find any excuses just to meet up with you everyday,
i would save up my money and starve so that i can buy you, your bday present that uve always wanted,
and no matter how far you are, i would squeeze my pocket to buy cdts so that we can keep close,
i would always be home early so that we can spend time on phone calls or chat room,
and no matter how i explain it to you, you would never know, how much i would do for you.
because this is only my dream, not yours too..

*saaaape kate alia tak jiwang..?

alia..not again..

2007-01-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

alia..alia..
back to square 1 aiye?
oh dear...
here we go..

fah`s,jamin`s and ester`s suprise party

2007-01-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

jadi gile ok!! like all of them were so suprise! it was awesome. we did it in citron b.b . i, who was 'sppse' to be at my nennys hse n teman my mom. and fah was so sprise to c me there. it was all gud! everyone was there. my food was great,my dress was gorgeous (fah says so),my hair was a mess, the people was awesome, and my mate were just memorable. dat nite was the 1st time ive met azad,fahs bf. like finally girl..! thanks to all of u guys who made my cousin so happy on that night after all what she had been trough. she deserves only the best. n am gona miss u like hell fah,jamin and ofcorse ester. where ever u guys are, pls always bring my love close to ur heart..

love u so much,
ur dearest alia
xoxo

citron bb

2007-01-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

frm left, farah,hasina,ika,yusnie,arifah,kristin,jasmin

jaja,jesse,azrina

and they live happily ever after..

2007-01-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

arifah and ajad

alia high

2007-01-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

gorgeous dresses

2007-01-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

when farah got too much to drink

2007-01-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

farah and alia

2007-01-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

Kan Dah Kene..padan muke!

2007-01-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

Kan dah kena, padan muka,
org semua dah kata jgn,
tapi dia degil,
Kan dah kena, padan muka,
alia dah bagitau ape dia dah buat,
tapi degil, nak jugak pergi,
Kan dah kena.. padan muka,
semua dah larang, dah kata,
tapi dia tak percaya, nak jugak buat,
Kan dah kena.. padan muka,
kene jerat dia, sekarang tak boleh keluar,
alia dah bagi tau kan? nak degil lagi?
Kan dah kena.. padan muka..

me and nellie

2007-01-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

the new born

2007-01-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

zara

2007-01-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

tom tom

2007-01-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

its gona be one bumpy ride

2007-01-17T19:24:00.000+08:00

alia..alia..alia..
for once my heart is full with my self. no more empty hole that needs to be fill in by everybody.
ive never remember the last time i dint admire anyone or being andmire by anyone. but for now. nope. not a thing. nada. nae. yup.. this plane is flying solo. with no co-captain or anythng. only family and stickly friends. fah is going to melbourne in a week. oh dear. she had never been apart from me for that long. the last time we were apart wast 4 yrs ago when i was went for europe trip for a month. and it realy make me feel like something big in my life is gone. n now she is gone for a year. because the next year, im gona join her in melbourne. *gasp*